December 2007 Archives

"I processed in my mind that I was not good enough. I remember lying in my bed, I told myself that I would never not be good enough again!" - Will Smith

Will Smith said the following when he got cheated on by his then girlfriend when he was only 15 years old....

When it comes to love, more often than not, i will tell myself I am not good enough.... Maybe it is good time that I learn how to buck up..

They say, a man who starts his day (the first thing he do when he wake up) looking into the mirror and telling himself what he wanna do or achieve, there's a high chance that he will be able to fulfill that target.

So here I am! =)

I CAN DO IT! I AM GOOD ENOUGH FOR EVERYONE!

When there is right, there is wrong.
When there is good, there is bad.
When there is black, there is white.
When there is strength, so will there be weakness.

I knew what my strengths were, but were rather uncertain about where the weaknesses were. I had come to terms with the Weakness recently. I hate to admit that it is (still is) my weakness.

I had msn conversations with 2 different friends on 2 separate occasions these past 2 weeks. Both told me the same observation and conclusion they had, albeit in different ways.

I had confidence in almost everything I do, sports, photography, studies, work, my own abilities and capabilities, my tastes etc but when it comes to relationships, I am simply vacuumed of all my confidence by a black hole which appear from I-don't-know-where.

How is it so? I don't know.. Maybe it is the work of a series of rejections and relationships gone wrong that resulted in the deflated me, or maybe I still had not met the right one? (this happened to be the universal choice for words of consolation)

Somehow I had drawn my own 2 conclusions. It is either I am not cut out for relationships (judging by my 'hermit' ways) or that I simply lost the ability to love the right way, the way I used to wish to and do, the romantic dinners, wonderful ambience, the laughter, the fun, the running after or one another at the beach and falling down on the sand bed in a deep embracement..

Which is which? I hate to say these 3 words, just as much as I hate gals to tell me this, but I chose to say this because......

I REALLY DON'T KNOW!