March 2006 Archives

I was going to work , just as every other working day, going thru' the same routes over and over again.
But the experience was quite different for me today.
At the other side of death, lies a very heart warming and touching side.

I saw a monkey lying on the middle of the 3 lane. It was most likely dead. Had it fallen to death ? or was it ran over by a vehicle ? I doubt is the latter, as the injuries on its small frame was superficial, but i could conclude that it was enough to conclude that the creature lying lifelessly, was dead....

There was another monkey at the side of the road.
I was riding towards its compatriot at a slow speed.
It ran towards the dead monkey, as if to check out its condition or to retrive the body, when a car comes, he ran back.
It continue the same thing again when i was approaching the body, only to move back the moment i came closer to the spot.

This scene really touched me.

Even monkeys know what's care and concern, and to not leave their comrades in death.
Does human knew the same thing ?

"Society progresses, Sympathy lapses..."

I always thought that I was an extrovert.
Am I ?
I thought i was always eager to know new friends, open to know new friends, always finding topics to talk to them, have lots of fun, crack lots of lame jokes, make everyone laugh.
I thought I would always be there for anyone, who never betray the trust that i had in them , that whenever , wherever they need me, i will be there.
Am I ?
Or am I just an introvert ?
The one who shooed himself away from crowds...
Prefer to stay in his solitary corners, away from the bustling environment.
The one who can be very good with both guys and gals for like the first few weeks/months and then the relationship nose-dived to the very worst level possible ?
It had happen to a few friends... ex gf... and many more to come if I were to make new friends...
So maybe i wont.. anymore..
I can't even handle proper friendships... much less r/ship...
My ex who broke up with me had so far all lived happily ever after... one is getting married these coming june to the guy she left me for, one is happily going into the 3rd year with the beau that she got with after me... oh well, this is my life.. no complaints...

I always ask myself , "I can be there for you whenever you need me, but can you ?" At many a times, I found the answer to be, "No!"
Many a times, people with trouble will come look for me. And many a times, once things tides over, they will forget about me.
It had been the case all so many times... that is the kind of role i play...

So here I am... leading an introvert life, alone in a world, i can barely trust people... some brothers, some sisters, thats all...

I start to realise, I dun hang out in groups anymore... I dun go out that often anymore... Nowadays I spent all my off days alone... Going to swim, going to movie, going shopping, going wherever.. That's only a "Me" but no "you"...
I am sick and tired... sick and tired...

Anyway thanks to all my bros for celebrating my birthday with me.

thanks ming, weida, derong, shunfa. Knowing you guys for 12 years, I really feel that at least you guys made this life worth living. =) you guys provided me much help when i needed it, and now should be my turn to do so if you guys need it. That's my living purpose for now maybe...
and ya ming, thanks for the Casio watch! Its the only pressie I got! lol for the previous 3 yrs!

thanks to monkey min, cheyanne, zhirong for remembering my birthday.
Zhirong, I no need mention la, she msg me is LI SHUO DANG RANG! lol
Min, its been a long time we met, its been a long time we even talk/chat or play bball together. But you still remember my birthday. thanks a million gal. You really moved me with this.
Cheyanne, even more rare that we chat, and we never even meet before, but you never failed to wish me happy birthday. JIE JIE XIE XIE! lol

I expected sms from some pple , but they never came. Nope, not from any gal i fancy or whatsoever. I am so disillusioned with life that sad to say, I dun even had a target for quite some time now. lol. For people that know me well enough, this is really a big surprise.

I think lesser and lesser people will remember my birhtday as time goes by, so maybe if you happen to stumble onto this blog few years down the road, you might see me blogging about the same shit again.
This time , i would say... "sad to say... no one remember my birthday!" or should i say "the existenece of Sam don't meant a thing...."

Sent my baby for overhaul... cost me half a grand..
Changed valve, piston, piston ring, gasket, clutch basket...
decarbonised my belly/exhaust
service carb

hopefully when i get her back, she will let me ride her like a virgin agian! hahaha