Such guy just disgust me!

Came back from work today! I was SO SO SO RELIEVED!!!! why? because today was supposed to be an off day.... but there's a shortage of manpower back in the office so i need to help supplement the shift.... most of the guys were like me today.... lethargy..... lazy..... not in the mood to work... haha
but watever , i am now back home!!! yippie!!!

Disgusted by guys like these...
There's this guy who came up to me (yup... i knew him...) and chatted with me.
He was having r/ship probs...
Usually you will be sympathetic to such people, you know ? the "so-poor-thing" treatment...

But i chose not to...

Why????? *Sam! Why you so bad??? lol*

I am very much a "on-the-ball" person.
I believed to work to the very best on the task given to me as it is my responsibility.... but not to show slack in my work just because i am in "depression" mode. I can understand periods like this... once in a while is ok, but most of the time ?????

Hey! you are paid to do a job... the organization does not pay and be sympathetic to you BGR probs.... which org does that ? *ok you might think i am being bad again... wait till you see wat i gotta say next...*

After he told me about these probs, he go on to tell me his sexual conquests... of 3 galfriend, mind you, not girlfriend hor.
Well in this age, it is even common for pple who are not related to each other in anyway to give in to their sexual cravings... I can understand that... i dun despise that....
but i hate it when you boast about how many partner u have, tell the world about this girl , and said wanna bring out and show your friends, etc....
Maybe you are really that good in bed, or that charming but you dun need to tell the world ya ? I guessed no one is interested...
And maybe that girl is really so easy like that way you sound , that everyone can UP her... but just keep mum ya? you know can le... Again, I am not interested to know.....

And yes i hate guys who boast to other guys about their sexual conquests...
its ok if they are hookers or alike.... but not ok if they feel they value the gal...
He said he had feeling for her.... then why the hell is he doing this ????

I will never tell others these private details about my gal and I... who are them to know about these private moments ????

fuck....

Can't love again ?
I mentioned it before... every since ZR... i found out i cant love again... till now even...

I realised that I dun have the same old patience... the same old romantic self... easily beaten and shoo-off by rejections...

Sometimes I really wish to go for wat i wanted... but self-esteem plays a part here... always feeling that i am not good enough to go for it...

Think this part is here to stay... I should just go on and concentrate on other things and hopefully never think about BGR stuffs... *know this is hard, but still should try ba... best thing for me at the moment*

if it happens it happens, thinking about it aint going to help...

I enjoy looking at Couples-in-love... full of envy for them...
So loving!!!!
How I wish i am in love right now.... well just a passing remark la.

Maybe you will think, is Sam a love-lorn ? Well, maybe ? I am a pisces ya ? and pisces are just like that. haha.

well well!
gonna "jian dian" a bit more.
concentrate on other things ba, it just aint the thing for me....