*Yawnz*
Just back from badminton! had some nice games today!
Gotta get a racket come pay day! My uncle jack off the racket.... now had to borrow from friend to play....
hmmmm
no more internet access in 2 hours time..... need to wait till 7/12 for my access to come back.... sux right ?
but no access = early nights for me!
Ya anything sms me!
ok la.
short update.
-off-
Quote of the moment - Dun live with someone u can live with, live with someone u cannot live without
Do you think he look like me? The guy to the right.
A friend's friend!
Blogging time!
BGR - Finally somethings are cleared now! *happy happy*
Although I never get the result i wanted, i still got it cleared, that's the most impt thing ya? haha.
Friendship - 1 more bad thing happened last night.... well you know who you are..... dun ever trap me again.... if there's a third party in the call between us, let me know.... respect me abit..... i felt so cheated... i tot i could trust u... but well.....
Updates on my life - Work work work. Think I been exercising alot lately, keeping fit, training hard for my IPPT gold and thinking of things.
Year 2003 and 2004 were hard ones.
I knew 2005 would be a better one! y?
Financially I should be almost cleared after my december bonus! finally can get back my freedom and then proceed on to do what i have in mind!
And without financial constraint, I should be able to do wat i want and not be so limited...
Being in debt changes a lot about me.... well, aint gonna dwell on that, when i am out of the pit , i will change again.... just knew that i will remember the lesson and grew from it! well for the the negative effects ? hopefully they will disperse when i am free again!
Got so many things in mind that I wanna buy! But let's see la, after pay back debt i still left how much.
I wanna get this
Time to get a companion to accompany me on my runs!
Ya, in a bid to cut down on my internet fees, i will be on Singnet from 7/12 onwards. Paying $47/mth for 512k ADSL! So every mth save $15! haha.
But from 1/12 - 7/12 i will not be able to access the net..... sux.... but nvm! Suffer first enjoy later!
Was watching some parts of the Singapore Idol just now.... well the sylvester version of Jay's An Jing sux big time!!! think i can sing better than him loh *bhb* but really la.... he's pronounciation cant make it.... well.... i am on mr mud! TAUFIK! haha.
That's all ba!
Anything else I will add later!
To Donny
Hmmmm regarding that comment I made in the forum, if you are pissed/unhappy about it, I would apologise and say sorry ya? Penny made me realised this cause i thought you should be able to take it. If not here's my apologies. :)
豆浆油条
曲：林俊杰 | 词：张思尔 | 编：
喝纯白的豆浆 是纯白的浪漫 望着你
可爱脸蛋 和你纯真的模样
我傻傻对你笑 是你忧愁解药 你说我
就像油条 很简单却很美好
我知道 你和我就像是豆浆油条 要一起
吃下去 味道才会是最好 你需要我的傻笑
我需要你的拥抱 爱情就是要这样它才不会淡掉
我知道 有时候 也需要吵吵闹闹 但始终
也知道 只有你对我最好 豆浆离不开油条
让我爱你爱到老 爱情就是要这样它才幸福美好
我知道 都知道 你知道 你都知道 好不好
别偷笑 笑 让我知道(就好)
我喝完热豆浆 却念着还想要 你吃完金黄
油条 爱情又要再发酵
extracted from rG's blog, for my own reflections.....
alright.
it was supposed to be something a little corny yet funny.
but after some deep thinking.
i shall write that next time.
so for now.
something interesting to digest.
before i begin.
this is a very generalised entry and is not meant to directly point out anyone.
alright.
just how often do you complained about being treated unfairly by people around you.
from what i know.
majority of us will simply push the blame on those people who you think had treated you badly.
constantly whining about that.
thats very much an unwelcome way of doing so.
and also a very atrocious behavior to have.
and so you think that friends or family members have been giving you cold shoulders and stuffs.
you think that you did nothing wrong in the first place.
but the fact that they are treating you this way is more or less your very own doing.
just ask yourself.
what kind of character did you portray yourself to be in front of them.
how did you treat them in the first place.
just to cite some examples.
as i think i did mention before in my previous entry.
you wont feeling the best of mood and so you think you can simply vent your anger on friends or perhaps even family members.
do you think they deserved such treatment.
if so all of us can simply go and make a scathing oral or written attack against anyone.
even the government.
and when questioned on why we did that.
i'm feeling lousy or i'm feeling upset.
and thats your reply.
hey come on and get real.
only adolescent will do so man.
should you wana vent your anger or frustration on.
do it on some non-living objects or the source of the problem.
you should be glad that when you re feeling gloomy.
there s someone who is bother to even come message you.
another example.
if you dare to do or say something hurtful or damaging.
be prepared to received that too.
since you re game for it.
just open out your arms and accept it.
there s a saying.
people will respect you if you respect them.
responsible ya.
hm.
and even you even start whining about how unfair life is.
how unfair god is.
how vicious people are.
ask yourself.
why in the first place will that happened.
its more like how you treated them and so you will received what sort of treatments.
lets say for example about a non-competitive team sports game played among friends during leisure time.
peter was complaining no one wana be in the same team as him week in week out.
whining about the fact that all of them only wana be in a winning team.
perhaps that s how right.
who will wana be in a losing team.
but thats what you see on the surface.
not wanting you to be in the same team as you might be the hole which will caused the team to lose.
thats pure bullshit.
its more of the attitude and character of peter.
im pretty sure even though you re not that impressive.
friends will still wanna you in their team even though they might lose.
its more of a friendship rather than your skill.
im how sure friends wont mind losing as long as they had fun.
and to have fun you have to be in the right crowd.
stop being a pussy and whined about such stuffs.
go think about why they dont want you in their team.
alright.
thats just an example i thought of.
just that day.
i was talking to my good friend jiawen.
we were saying some friends can be really good friends.
but on their relationship side.
they are bastards/bitches.
think about it.
its how true.
but thats like not our problem you think.
right.
some guys/girls i know are sly pretender.
lets not talk about what good friend they can be.
but on how they handle relationships.
awful.
some will always talk about how pitiful they were.
how their ex left them and how upset they were and wish to reconcile back with them.
for a moment you thought.
man i feel for you. your ex sucks.
thinking that your friend is right and bashing about their ex.
but days later.
they come telling you they are in love with someone else.
and you went erm....
more like a wolf in sheep skin.
and how one tries to win someone else heart.
sweet talks flirting and stuffs.
doing those underhand tricks to gain sympathy.
thats how not cool.
cheap thrills.
perhaps thats not our problem too.
bastards and bitches.
hm.
lastly.
some people always think that people around him owes him/her.
in a way or another.
she/he think s he s always right.
claiming that thats him/her.
even if friends around him/her suggested to him he should go think about it.
they declined and saying stuffs like.
nah i wont changed. im not wrong and so why should i.
yes.
we cant possiblely asked them to change for us.
but do have the heart to go think about it at least.
if not people will just simply hate you to the core.
and thats their very own doing.
at times.
we think that certain people are very close with us.
but thats what you think.
what i mean is.
example.
mary thinks that she s very close with this group of friends.
but those friends of her detest her.
just that when they are together with her.
they pretended nothing s wrong.
go think about it.
this happen to most people.
yap.
alright.
lazy to continue with this.
no offence.
smile.
These few days seem so long to pass.....
Good times flies pass fast, bad times we can only slog thru it....
Some incidents happened these few days and it made me revisit some spots in myself which I had not gone for a while.
Incident 1
- A friend asked me to call her at 3 am..... called her, her friend pick up the phone and scolded me from ard 3am - 5am..... well well...
I admit i took a wrong step but you aren't in it, you won't understand....
You scolded me because of your sistership, but don't you think if you speak nicely, things will be much better? rashness aint going to help the situation. Moreever, this incident had simmer down, why bring it up again ? especially when it dun directly involves you?
I talked to her, she's just bz with her exam and u 2 usually took the initiative to ask her out, that's y she feels nothing is wrong....
so after her exam, find a day and ask her out, she would be more than glad to meet up with u gals.
that's all i would "report" to u gals, other than that its my own personal stuffs le. ....
Incident 2
rG gave me a wake up called..... in 2 areas.
a. My character, my interpersonal skills..... maybe i seriously lack in this area.....
b. Wat are they? friends or associate? I hate to say it... but i think associates are appropriate here.....
Knew them since last june.
shared a lot of happy times together , basketball, suppers, dinners, celebrations, mahjong, games, craps... u name it, mostly we had it...
had the occasional hiccups but things were resolved .... until wat happen recently.
My character was questioned, interpersonal skills questioned.... by them, by myself.....
rG brought up a good point about peter, maybe peter is really the gap , that's y no one wanna be in a team with him, well even if he dun mean it to be me, i am that peter in real life, cos i did make that kinda comment b4... maybe i am the gap la, and no one likes to be with losers... i dun mind though... maybe great minds think alike, and losers flock together as well, so well, i dun mind the team mates i had, as long as i enjoy my game....
will still go down ... but not as often.... and not if no kaki is there....
knew a lot of good friends down there, and definitely lots of associates......
i wont forget the following pple, and will definitely ask u all out to la kopi when i can.
ah gu
ben
lixian
xuemin
jasmine
yunyun
might have missed some names here, might la! lol
like min once same, when i am angry, i will erupt.... this wont change in me...
and for donny and rg, i would take wat u all said and think about it.
but hope u guys think about it too about urself.
to rg
. y the elbow and pushing in the game? its damn obvious.... even ben can see it CLEARLY.... this happens quite a while back.. but it tells alot about your sportmanship and whether u ever regarded me as friend, from this gesture, it shows u dun, cos i was the only 1 who got it i think that day. lol
. when u borrow things, return it, if u think it will take a bit long , call that person.
i learnt this the hard way... and i hope u dun learn it the hard way like i did.
to donny.
. release the past ya? u always said u did, but u nv.... me and von feels the same about this.....
. mlm aint the way.... unless u can prove to urself that u are seeing results now.....
. i trusted u b4... but some things happen.....
that's all.
no more lovehurts forum/channel, no more g-net or basketball channel for me.
will still blog ya
will still be there when anyone need me.
ps : wat kind of person am i? really so jialat ? *lol*
还你门匙 - 余文乐 Yue, Shawn
做情侣 做朋友 都需要漂亮借口
但和你 沉默太久 应该说的怎开口
谁要 隔着电话讲分手
无法 笑着陪做走
谁愿意 和你斗 难听的 别开口
* 谈情说爱是那么易 然而共聚无话更易
沉默冷战玩意 我与你也没法医 无谓再倚
谈情说爱就算轻易 如何话别谁又会知
好不过 相拥到 半熟时
还掉你门匙 也出于好意
是谁差 是谁好 都只怪寄望太高
是谁错 重头细数 当天对你好不好
难过 隔着电话听不到
而我 也是为你好
谁愿意 难看到 朋友都 做不到
Repeat *
彼此也同时 了解这爱情玩意
坐上回旋木马 直到抛开你我为止
Repeat *
I'm worth $2,161,942.40! How much are you worth?
Went for jog at around 12.30am?
Now backie le.
Jog for around 20 minutes? did some pull ups, push ups and hang-on-the-bar-sit-ups. *hehe*
The jog really cleared my mind ! *was quite fan2 this few days.*
-BATH-
-EAT MY FAV PRAWN MEE! MAMA COOK DE!-
Then surf around for a while. then start blog le.
Been damn down at work today.
Because of matters of the heart i presumed.
Things will cleared in time.... dunno when.... but in time....
"If you like someone, dun ever give up....."
Going to slp le.
wanna blog a lot of things but head went blank.... fucked.....
anyway no bball on fri and sat.... cos need to work from 3-10pm..... good games to all first! =)
ciaoz!
kooning time!
Suey day?
Went to Zoo to take some pics, particularly wanted to take some pics of the White Tigers or Lions in their grand state! But when I reached and camp..... the animals were either sleeping or facing the other side... kaoz.....
Just managed to expose a roll though.... hope they turn out well! =)
Then came home liao loh.
Wanted to go jog but fallen asleep on the bed. hehe
wake up go makan then now right here blogging.
short right this blog? cos no life ma. *lol*
Well well..... i am sick.....
hmmmmmm is it flu? cold? or sinus problem? i have a weak nose....
hmmmmmm, coughing?
hmmmmmm, feeling kinda cold? even though i was standing in the hot sun......
but but but
nothings beats having a state of calmness.
although things might not go my way.. its still always good to be optimistic about things and not to be insistance if it aint gonna be the way i want it to be.....
wat u guys think? =)
i am a man who treasures r/ship.
it is easy for me to have a crush, not easy for me to be really serious.
and when i am serious, it aint easy to find a girl who feels the same way too.
and when u tot u found her, u might, might not be with her.
i always feel that if u can find someone u r serious with and that person is serious with u, chemistry is there, it is always a waste to give such blessed r/ship away.....
but sometimes things just gonna be that way....
if we r together, of course, i would be overjoy!
if we arer not??? i would just take it that i had a nice dream which ended abruptly....
To Joey : I have plans ahead..... plans for my life..... my future.... just that I need to sort out my finance first..... which would be settled within the coming quarter.
then i would have to pass my language test, which is a requirement for my career advancement....
after that then will i continue my studies.....
its impt to pursue upgrading... but i wish to do it only when things are more or less more stable...
I always tot u knew me well enough..... but we are really drifting apart..... we used to standby each other and be there.... even after we broke up.... things remain like that for a while......
but not anymore..... we are really drifting apart......
i can be there for you as your best friend...... but can u be the same for me? i doubt it...
maybe i am having less trust in the ever-great human race... for that.... i can only say sorry.......
?痛苦这种东西，如果一刀致命的锐利武器也就罢了，最难当的，是痛苦象只微小的虫寄宿在皮肤上，吸收过去的甜蜜回忆，转换成毒素注射回体内，放肆的燃烧，烧出辛烈刺鼻的气味，人一点一滴的气力衰败，虚弱窒息，而更可恨的，是世上竟没有任何有效工具可以把我和痛苦完全隔离起来。。?
?回忆是以一种病，也是个监牢，只有自己和痛苦坦诚相对逼得人走向绝路中的绝路。。?
?我知道，喜欢上一个人并不是一件难事。
难的是，如何让你也喜欢上我?
-失恋杂志 Summer 2003, 14.
记得
作詞：易家揚 作曲：林俊傑 編曲：吳慶隆
誰還記得是誰先說 永遠的愛我 以前的一句話是我們 以後的傷口
過了太久沒人記得 當初那些溫柔 我和你手牽手說要一起 走到最後
我們都忘了 這條路走了多久 心中是清楚的 有一天 有一天都會停的
讓時間說真話 雖然我也害怕 在天黑了以後 我們都不知道 會不會有以後
我們都累了 卻沒辦法往回走 兩顆心都迷惑 怎麼說 怎麼說都沒有救
親愛的為什麼 也許你也不懂 兩個相愛的人 等著對方先說 想分開的理由
誰還記得愛情開始變化的時候 我和你的眼中看見了 不同的天空
走得太遠終於走到 分岔路的路口 是不是你和我 要有兩個 相反的夢
誰還記得是誰先說 永遠的愛我 以前的一句話是我們 以後的傷口
過了太久沒人記得 當初那些溫柔 我和你手牽手說要一起 走到最後
我和你手牽手說要一起 走到最後
Hmmm, starting to feel so.... back to hermit kinda life again.... sometimes i would self-pity myself for this predicament that i am in.... but then again, i am fine with it! really! =)
so wats up for the past 6 days?
nothing much actually.
1/10 - Working noon
2/10 - Working morning, went to meet HER for dinner...
3/10 - Working morning then follow by guard duty. Reach home 9+ the next morning.
4/10 - reach home. slp. wake up. too tired for the G-net bball match against temasek hall NUS.... so skipped it.... the guys won anyway, congrats!
5/10 - slacked at home... wanna go ssdc to retake my expired theory.... but student pass expired.... need to extend.... wanna go swimming.... rained.... wanna go tcc..... rained...... damn lan lan... in the end at night go buy some plants for my tank....
6/10 - specially took off. wanna accompany HER but .... oh well.... she doesnt need me, she went out with her ex's mum.
I lan lan. went to suntec to return my LG G5400 but guess wat the service person told me? "Sorry sir, but the broken LCD is not covered in the warranty and it will cost $122 to repair it." First tot on my mind, wtf? the warranty also never write LCD not covered loh... just write that antenna is not covered..... I got the phone free with the 2 yr plan that I signed.... now need to pay $122? I rather save the money for a new phone...... and i think i will do just that! so which phone should i get? *ponders*
then i no where to go..... so decide to chill off on my own.
went to the Singapore Art Museum (SAM in short) and had a mocha coffee at DOME cafe. well , the ambience was top notch! just when i needed some sentimental songs to invoke my feelings and thinking. Hmmm, they played casablanca... nothing gonna change my love for you, love me and more. I was reading the LOST SERIES range of short chinese love stories and writing a book i wrote for HER as well....
sit there for about 2 hrs? then off again le.....
When I woke up today, i already had this feeling that SHE aint gonna meet me today.... again...... well my sentiments were right.... for the 3rd day in a row.. she cant meet me.....
we had some sms-es exchange, and i got some answers tat i wish to know.
"Whatever you told me, whatever the problems are,
I will help you to overcome it....
let's fight the war together...."
