Just came back from my unit's DND.
Well this year's DND was held in camp..... standard like fuck... and somemore it command the same fee as last year which was held at Fullerton..... WTH?
Anyway that aside. Better blog down what I had in mind first.
I HATE DRUNKARDS
I realised I hate drunkards.... and yes, HATE!
When they are drunk, they are damn damn ugly.... do the stupidest of things.... say the dumbest of words....
I hate to be around this type of pple.... if you know you would end up like this after you drink then you jolly well don't......
If you cant hold your liquor then don't act till you can..... know your limits.....
I had bad experience with this type of pple for these past 2 weeks.... don't need such FATE......
Hey god, if you are reading my blog, can you kindly dun let me see drunkards again ?
Maybe I am practising double standard here, but if SHE gets drunk, I will not HATE it.... will DISLIKE it..... but will be there right till the end to take good care of her. :P
I HATE CROWDS, PARTIES, ENTERTAINING, SUCKING UP!
I hate to be in crowds... in formal dinners..... in wild parties..... to entertain pple.....
I nv will suck up to anyone nor put on a pretentious front just to be in his/her good books.
This attitude of mine will definitely caused me a lot but then again I guessed it should be fine, as I wont let myself down.
I always believed that in this world the worst thing you can ever do is to let yourself down... so i would nv do that to myself...
Don't know why I am such a person.... i guessed i had lost a lot becos of this trait of mine....
Lost in love? interpersonal relationships? work? blah blah blah
The girls I loved b4 and like.... usually likes to party.... haha
That's y sometimes i think i deserved to be alone cause the gals i kinda like will nv be satisfied to be with a dummy like me. :)
My superiors and colleagues likes to chiong.
I don't... so i always see my peers and juniors hanging out with them, slowly joining their clique... but i am still stagnant....
So unfair treatment will definitely be there..... these are just human affections...
Recently I been pretty quiet at work.... do my own work... talk less.... work work work.... cos i dun feel that I have friends at my workplace..... just colleagues.... not friends.... i am pretty much alone... but hack that ..... i am used to that... of all those that even read my blog.... how close of a friend are we anyway? haha
well I don't blame anyone..... it all boils down to me..... really....
SELF CONFIDENCE
Self confidence is pretty much a self induced trait.
I been having jumps recently...... sometimes high on confidence.... sometimes low....
Financially things should be fine by Feb/Mar and loosen up by DEC.... that is a good news for me..... but can i survive till then? hope so.....
Relationship wise..... well.....
After Joey.... she's the girl that really throttle my heartbeat..... felt really comfortable whenever i am out with her.... maybe becos we are similar? in both personality, backgrounds, and up bringing?
When I am with her, I experience things i nv felt for a long long time.
Even bites can be so soothing to the skin! hehe
We got feelings for each other.....
But time is the essence here/
Well so we gonna play the time game again.... time..... it makes or breaks......
Hope it wont go wrong this time.....
