July 2004 Archives

*yawnz*

been quite a few days since i last blogged!
really busy these few days... so tired that the moment i reach home, i would sleep after my bath..... sometimes even to the extent of forgoing my dinner.....

tomorrow still need to work morning.... this week no off de.... but nvm cause i applied for off on Monday! YEEEE~~! I need to pay back my sleep-debt!

hmmmm so wat happen during the past few days?
would just jolt down in point form la of watever i can still recall

- some idiot malay stolen my pair of grey slippers.... suspected that they are the same pple that stole penny's pair too! should be the neighbour that live directly opposite me .... the friends thier kids mixed around with are really jialat.....

- some fishes died... due to the inefficiency of my powerhead... kaoz.... water too dirty and fishes mati... some only la, manage to rescue some still! but still heart pain cause they are my precious!

-bought a new powerhead and added some new fishes!

-had a bad day yesterday.... i am one of 10 members of my unit anniversary commitee.... being the lowest rank there i was ask to do all the shit-jobs..... nvm i am find with it... but some comments they made make me feel as though i am useless..... if that is the case i rather be out of the commitee than be in...... it doesnt hurt to be not involved..... sux.... do so much , nothing go wrong and this is wat i get in return....

think that's all ba for now.... a bit of a brain-jam.....
later got more than i add!

ciaoz

Book of the Moment: Men's Health Mag
Music of the Moment: She will be loved - Maroon 5

FUCK! just home only and went to check my email......
found out that my blog (samuelgoh.net) was FLOODED with 303 comments in less than 5 MIN!!!!! WTF?

namely the culprits go by these names
-online poker
-online casino
-viagra
-phentermine
-viagra online
-generic viagra
-buy phentermine online

tried to block their ip add but found that all came from diff ip whose identity seems rather innocent..... and the most funny thing? the website they are advertising for dun even exist....

stupid pranks that waste my time to download my email.......

i will treat this as a one off incident..... if it happens again...... i shall do something about it!!!!!!!

like i said just home only....... hungry...... not really tired though, later go eat! more impt!!! hahaha.

*dreams about photography dreams*

go slack around.
update later if i got anything to add.....

OMG! I am gunbounded!!!! shit!
going sleep le.... midnight shift again..... yucks.....
but nvm, i will sleep with a good dream about my nice photos! hehe :)

Some more pics before i take my rest....
let me know what you all think about them and whether you like it a not.
all taken with my trusty manual SLR. ;)

the photos are ready!
got some very nice de!
let u all preview one first! hehe
gotta go to work le!
guess who are they?

ciaoz!

time to work again..... tmr come back then msg u all ba.... ciaoz
PS : kind souls can sms me and keep me company
haha

Wake up for a while, going back to zzzzzzzz soon! later work midnight!

been eyeing some shirts lately, shld i buy them? nice ma?

give me ur views hor! thanks!!!!! hehe

These few days been sleeping quite alot, think tmr would be the same ba... as a prep for my coming midnight shift perhaps?

so wat bout today? hmmmmmm
well, went makan, buy 4D, keep my room tidy, buy tidbits, fruits, blah blah blah.

Was walking pass the furniture when i saw a mahjong table, shld i get a new one ? *ponders*

hmmmmm, added a new series of flash movies on my site, samuelgoh.net, zhai xing series, some of you might seen it b4, if nv, then go see loh! its a nice one ! :)

Shld be slping le ba, quite late le, think i shld tidy up my mags b4 i slp! hahaha.

ya tmr (or rather later) i can go get the photos i develop during the zoo trip! will post them online asap (on my site that is, not on tab)! hehe

watch out for it! koonz liao! nights!

PS : monkey wrote this about me -
Sam: Piggy!! we din hit on right away, only after some time of talking and hanging out together we became closer. he is sure a lame fella becos he can really tok some rubbish out of anything. doesnt mind when we suan his =D but he does have a hot temper! miss ya nephew and mom's cooking!!

hehe thanks min! tmr or wat then i write about u all or u! depends on how lazy i am!!!! hahaha

It's so good to see you now
It's been so long since we've been together
You kept in touch somehow
You always found a way to be there
[CHORUS]
I wish that I could stop the hands of time between us
All the days gone by
Do you remember when we were the best of friends
All the days gone by
You know that memories never fade
As you're watchin' all your days go by
Lookin' back on younger years
That's what our hopes and dreams are made of
All the laughter and the tears
It's the feeling of love that makes us
[CHORUS]
All of the feelings that we had before
But through the years, oh those were the times
Ooh yeah, alright
The memories we share
You can't erase them from your mind
Those were days gone by
You know that memories never fade
As you're watchin' all your days go by
They go by, they go by, they go by, they go by
You know that memories never fade
As you're watchin' all your days go by

Well well well, my eyes are dry, pain and itching! think i wore my contacts for quite a while, that's why!

hmmmm, need a recap? i just write a brief 1 ya

Sunday - Zoo Day!

Went zoo, supposed to be a channel outing but in the end only me, alex and samann went! ps by donny....... last minute seph, ug and nissan cant make it....

but nvtheless, it was still a good one, for me at the very least, took a lot of photos, send for developing but the stupid developer slow de... shld not had gone to that shop.... *regrets*

ya, someone brought cam but forgot to bring memory stick!!!!!!! <-------- points at samann! *hahahahahahhahaahahahhahahahahahaha*

i cant stop laughing! well lesson learnt ya! next time must check before you leave home!

well, was cheated of 1.7+1.7+1.7+1 by a vending machine..... nnb, anyway sunday was the first time i got a drink from the machine using SMS! lol, exciting!!!!!!!

had dinner at mos burger amk with them. saw a "CHIO BU"!
poor alex..... "COOL" drink and "CHIO BU"!

then went home le.....

as for today, nothing much, woke up in the morning, went back to take a nap, then went pak ball at neighbourhood bball court.
sat on the floor..... kena spearmint chewy gum!!!!!! CCB!!! hate those bloody asshole son of a bitch who spit their gums anywhere they like!!!!!! hope their mouth tmr got ulcer!!! hmmmm pak for a while went home then watch tv and online loh.

that is my day....

i am starting to feel that i am a workaholic.... how?????
i actually preferred working day to off day!!!!!!!!
y? at least on a working day i got things to do, pple to talk to, hang around with.
off day? my friends are working...... studying..... pei-ing bf/gf/wife, commitments of their own..... in the end either i one person walk around or nua.....

therefore go work better still..... these 2 weeks all the off days all like that....... kaoz........ i got lots of friends, but i still feel i am only on my own.......

I am SIAN! I am TIRED! but I don't fell like sleeping yet!!!! how? *lol*

hmmm, well, like i said earlier, i went to CCC to pak bball!
I was on bus 167 as i was going straight from camp.
Well I overslept and had to trackback from Far East and walk back to CCC...... *duhz*

Hmmm, reach CCC, sit around for a while, saw my new jersey, number 28!!!!!! shld have gotta number 88 instead though... *tsk*

then went pak ball loh. ok not a bad day. enjoy myself cos finding fitness coming back! and ball sense also not that rusty le! *yippie*

After the games, as usual, one whole big gang went to have dinner together loh.

chk my 4D results..... i bought 9438, the starter open 9384..... see $500 fly away.... *sigh*

after dinner i nothing do so go home loh.
was contemplating whether to train pool anot but think today sat la so dun think should have any empty table, somemore at that kind of time...... i just walked from meridien to park lane to take 147 back to hougang la in the end.

well, while walking to the bus stop i got some thoughts....

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~~~~DRIFTING INTO THOUGHTS~~~~
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Saw some couples today... was envious of how happy they are.
I recalled all my previous relationships and how happy each and every one of them were.
There were good times and bad.... and i can never forget the bad... it always affect me more than how the good moments can influence me....
Of course I want to find someone perfect, someone happy, someone that suits me...... but that was in the past, not anymore...
Love is something that I had no control of... sometimes i think i am in it but i am out, sometimes i think i like/love her, but i dun, sometimes i dun she likes/loves me but she is not...
I was hurt before and I hurt others before.
I deserve all that i had gotten but the others that I had hurt never deserved the hurts that i brought about and caused...
thus i think i rather be single.... and concentrate on other more concrete things in life, rather than love.....

i thought about changes too..... i dun wan anyone to change for me to become something that they are not..... neither will i change for others and be something that i am not....

for the whole of today i kept humming the tune of "last christmas" softly to myself... a verse from it always surfaced....

"Once bitten and twice shy,
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye,
Tell me baby, do you recognise me,
Well, it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me."

See you guys at CCC hor! :)
but if cat 1 then too bad liao!

ciao! gotta leave for work le!

Good Day all!

我是戒情人。。。。。。

在感情的世界裡　
如果其中一個人感覺不同了
對另外一個人來說是很慘忍的
一個還在享受著那幸福的味道
而另一個卻已深陷在痛苦之中

我們都認為　愛一個人就是要對他好
對他好的同時　是不是也去考慮到對方要不要這份好？
沒錯　你不能阻止任何一個人　對你好　喜歡你　愛你
如果他沒有要求相對的回報　那就是他的權力
當然　你也無法去控制任何一個人
不想對你好了　不再喜歡你了　甚至不再愛你了
但是如果人人都能明白這個道理　
社會上就不會有那麼多的情殺案了


分手的時候　很多當初喜歡對方的原因　都成了分手的理由及藉口
有人說　愛一個人就是愛　說不出原因的
但是通常要求分手時　對方一定要逼你說出一個原因來
等你說出口時　他又會說?就因為這個原因？　
你就要我放棄那麼多年的感情？
我辛苦經營了那麼久　怎能說放就放？?
　
愛真的可以不求回報嗎？
到底　兩個人在一起是因為不甘心放手
還是因為習慣？　或是因為還相愛著？

分手的時候
哭的那一個　不代表他最傷痛
提分手那個人　也不一定是最狠的那個人
感情分跟合　都是不能強求的



每一段感情　到最後都會變成一種習慣
從欣賞到喜歡　從喜歡到愛　從愛變成習慣　而習慣就成家人
有多少人能習慣這種習慣？　如果比率很高　就不會有那麼高的離婚率了



有人恐懼婚姻　是因為婚姻暴力太多　
是因為未來的一輩子裡都要對著同一個人
那到底是該感覺幸福？　還是恐懼？
童話故事裡的最後一段
?白雪公主與白馬王子從此過著幸福快樂的生活?　令許多人嚮往婚姻
而當婚姻出現問題　卻又是輕易地把離婚說出口
　

　
看到身邊的朋友結婚時　其實很佩服他們的勇氣
很想問他們　為什麼會想嫁給他　為什麼想娶她
可能會得到這樣的答案
因為　我們交往很久了　不娶(嫁)她(他)　好像也說不出理由
因為　他對我很好
因為　我們年紀都到了
因為　我們有小孩了
因為...........有太多的因為.........　都是不是因為兩個人自己的原因
不是因為父母　就是因為年紀
不是因為小孩　就是因為交往很久了
或許某一方原本並不是那麼想結婚的　
但是輿論的壓力　家庭的壓力　力量實在太大了　於是認命的人結了



不婚主義者會說　婚姻只是一紙合約書　人生就是要追求快樂
但是當你在追求快樂的同時　或許卻會令身邊的人擔心
當兩個人的事　已經不只是兩個人的事時
還能夠只考慮到自己想去追求的快樂嗎？
此時身邊的人不斷在問：
你們交往也有一段時間了，什麼時候結婚啊？
等到結婚之後　又有人問：
你們都結婚幾年了，什麼時候要生啊？
大家不都是狗仔嗎？　我們都不是公眾人物吧！
但是都住在三姑街或六婆巷
人看似幸福的一對　大家都會很?關心?你們的情形
所以大家都沒錯　因為大家會問也是因為關心嘛！
俗話說得好：家家有本難唸的經．清官難斷家務事．
所以人家的事　還是讓人家自己去解決吧
有時兩個人的相處細節　只有兩個人最清楚
任何旁人都沒有辦法介入去瞭解的
?關心的介入?　也只會把事情複雜化而已

　
(如果你愛一個人，隨遇而安，讓他/她自由的飛，
如果最後他/她還是回到你身邊，那就是命中注定的。)

Just back from run... it was tiring... i was happy with the result though, it was just one of those "warm-up" runs that i need to start my ippt training! trying to get gold on my first attempt.

I like to run. Running freshens me up, sobers me up... especially in times of uncertainty, at times that i don't know what to do... like...now?

in terms of relationship, i had to admit that i handled it poorly... i though i know what i was doing but in fact i wasn't.... in terms of r/ship matters, sad to say i am not responsible enough... i never wish for things to turn out like that but it wasnt within my control...
i hate myself for doing this....
even today, the whole day, i was thinking of ways , reasons and excuses to pardon myself... but i found none.....
i am sorry but i never meant to hurt you... never... you deserve something better... not someone like me...

Somethings are not easily forgotten, i dont choose for things to happen, it just happen..... it came back to me always, over and over again, i am going through a cycle, a retribution of sorts, experiencing the same pain and sadness over and over again and again and i had to involve you sorry.....

i havent found an answer yet.... i am still finding.... searching..... can i find one that is good enough for the both of us? i don't know..... would it be the best if it was for the best of you? or me? or us?
i had to think somemore..... i dunno how long but i will try..... i cant give u an answer about how long it will take....

sorry.....

First of all, good news!!!
i found my key pouch!!!!!!!!!
other than that? nothing much le.
found a new way to study my malay too! so far effective! hehe! :)

hmmmmm went see fishes loh, yet again... tot of adding some, but decided against it, cos

1 - no $$
2 - add too many fishes in too short a time
3 - tank a bit untidy, thinking of ways to clear it up.

reach home go shoot hoops. ok la, but macam like growing weaker le.... nua too much! time to train le! *where's my ippt gold????*
shot for over an hour then balik kampung...

bath, eat then change water for my tanks and feed my babies!!! hehehe. see them i happy happy!

ya donny in my camp now for his ICT.
tmr meet up with him to go see Spidey with the lovehurts gang! hopefully meeting don't end too late!! go go go!

gonna sleep le! tomorrow working morning yet again....

guys you all know where i can adopt children from 3rd world country? sponsor them and stuffs like that?

also where to find nice vintage tees????

thanks!

江南
曲：林俊杰 | 词：李瑞洵 |

风到这里就是黏 黏住过客的思念
雨到了这里缠成线 缠着我们流连人世间

你在身边就是缘 缘份写在三生石上面
爱有万分之一甜 宁愿我就葬在这一点

圈圈圆圆圈圈 天天年年天天 的我
深深看你的脸 生气的温柔 埋怨的温柔 的脸

不懂爱恨情愁煎熬的我们 都以为相爱就像风云的善变
相信爱一天 抵过永远 在这一剎那冻结了时间

不懂怎么表现温柔的我们 还以为殉情只是古老的传言
离愁能有多痛 痛有多浓 当梦被埋在江南烟雨中
心碎了才懂

Same old day la, laze on the bed for quite awhile before i decided to climb out of bed and get ready for work.

went work... work work work work... then go eat with camp mates.
got a treat. :) song!
but left my key pouch there.......
shld be left there la.....
cause not in my friend's car..... *prays*
if not need to buy new lock for cupboard , make new keys and get new key pouch.... waste of money.......

shld be sleeping soon ba, tmr work morning... sianx.....

Now watching The Eye!!! Nice nice! 2nd time watching it le! :star: :star: :star: :star: show! so far chinese ghost stories only got a few nice de.... gui la jiao, the eye, qian nu you hun series, anymore to add?

hmmmm, do you guys believe in ghosts???? or the supernatural? i do... to some extent.... how about you guys? share share ya? hehe.

been busy with camp commitment, with appointments comes commitments..... sux.... hopefully perform well and let it add on to my performance for this year! :) that will be really nice!!

hmmmmm , these 3 days forcasted to be down with rain, so guys prepare your wet-weather proggies!

so little time so much to do... i wanna do lots of things but too little time... wanna watch movies, improve myself, play bball, get my license, blah blah blah... ya been a long time since i last took photos too, gonna take some pretty soon i hope! ya, went shopping yesterday, saw some books, really interest me man! wanna buy some books on the special elite forces of the various country, hmm bible code? and also some books about the biography of McDonald! hehe.

before the shopping i went pak pool with my uncle, he accidentally tripped a guy and that young punk "diao" him!! i quite dulan at the youngster's attitude..... observe him for a while, realised his pool skill sux!!!!! if i had that kind of skill i definitely wont guai lan in the pool saloon! throw his own face really! anyway think i will start training on my pool/billiard pretty soon!

ciaoz, time to return to my show..... (on my god! left ankle hurts!!!)