April 2004 Archives

Arrggghhhhhhhhhh! I sprained my ankle again!!!!!!! fcuk!
Think I gotta miss on a few stuffs le...
-Inter Unit Basketball Tournament
-Unit's Range
and not to mention lots of inconvenience that it will cause on me....

Haiz... had a bad landing when i was cutting into the left side of the red... fcuk loh, always play with that guy sure kena something one... last year was he elbowed my lips.... swell like mad... jaw also a bit wai... caused me 2-3 weeks cant eat and drink properly... now shld be at least a week or 2 cant walk properly le...

At first when just kena still can walk a bit... after the tui na... basically i can only play "hopscotch" loh... pain like fcuk... worse was after i woke up from my short nap.... now sam pig really got pig trotters le...

Following my injury, now my unit lack a starter-5 shooter! hahaha. not i say de hor, i where got so BHB one.
my sir say de. cos when i play with them not so pressure, somemore they not so fast, i can take my time. hehe.
now just hope i recover on time for the games on Monday... hmmm, possibility to recover is 10%? hahaha

If I miss this range then sian le... the range is $200 wor! sure kena de.... but heng can join another company for range... tamade...

PS : who wear hard contact lense here? i got an all in one solution to give away. i change to soft lens recently...

And to all bball friends, pai seh cant join u all for a while.......

Ok update for today!

Went to zoo ALONE to take pics! :D using my manual SLR Minolta X700, a cam that might just be older than i am!
went there around 3pm and the zoo closes at 6pm...
thus i only got 3 hours loh to cover the whole zoo... and i nv know that the zoo was so big!!! i cant even finished half of it!!
maybe becos i took a long time at each spot ba to take the animals, that's y i took so long...
but it was disappointing.... i managed 72 exposures but only can develop 36... the other roll was torn... stupid me la... use too much of my brawn.. instead of my brains... *curse*

anyway i saw a very warming scene today when i was photographing the BABOONS!
I saw this 2 baboon! 1 very old, 1 shld be younger de la. It was plucking something from the old baboon's head. sorta like wat we will do to our loved ones, pluck white hair la, search for pimples la and etc.
It was so loving! Never in my life did i expect love from any living things other than humans!

anyway shld be going to the zoo again ba! got some unfinished work to do!
(owe too much debts to my photographic dreams)

after that went to meet S H E for dinner loh. alex joined us later.
well this was the first time in my 22 years of life that i heard someone refer to burgers as YI LI! *lol* and I had quite a meal loh, i ate LIANG LI! :X
then there's miss sai man who kept on playing with the chilli and tomato sauce! kept mixing them and stir and stir, somemore on top of the pic of the grilled beef! damn er xin!
then "freeloader joyce" came by and crap with us! she and her LA GUO TIAO! :X
overall i had a fun time la, laughing, crapping and lame-ing around!

after which i parted with the four of them as i was the only one going up north. *yawns*

I found a pig. A real nice pig. A similar pig. A pig that I can't stop "oink oink" to! PIG PIG PIG! I am fascinated by PIG! :D

YEEEEEEEEHOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

My blog can use again le!!
I got this perl module problem... but nvm, got it reinstalled onto the server.
Now the blog is fine to use again!

Watch this space for more of SAM PIG update! *lol*

Later come back then post about today! ho ho ho ......

Wah! :bigeyes:
Its been such a long long time since I last blog... I almost thought i had quit the blog-ging world!
But i did not! I was just tired, lazy, lethargic and prostantinating (is that how you spell the word?).
So now I would give you some insight on my puny life.

-I bought some new fishes! =D
-Became a bit loosen up financially.
-Knew some new friends.
-Met up with some old ones.
-Got a new HP! its a LG G5400!

Silver Flip phone! got other things free with it too! $100 guess vouchers and 1 year free Cable TV! GOOD GOOD DEAL! *hehe*
-Ordered a LOMO ACTION SAMPLER camera! very nice effect cam! next time take le, post here and show you all!
-Went for Lovehurts outing and make some new friends.
-Bought a new bball shoe! And1 again....
-Interested in a new brand called COLUMBIA! all hardy stuff!

went to sunset bay with army friends today. pak volleyball, played soccer. my friend lost his slipper!!! some cheapo steal it! *lol* well, the beach was filled with bikini clad chicks and guys of all sizes! busy even on a monday! think i would be going there more frequently ba, nice place to chill out! the guys ordered 2 jugs of beer at the bar... i am a fuck-up drinker... they still made me drank 2 mugs... hai wo a while later rest at the table.. but funny thing is this time i recover damn fast!!! that's an improvement ar! =D
played with a group of girls volleyball.
after that my friend kinda like one girl so he went to take phone number. i was younger than that friend by 1... and all my friends know i single... so they keep on asking me to go take... i submitted to the pressure, went to ask... kena rejected... *lol* used to it, anyway not a girl i interested in, so no big deal!
then come home liao loh... *ya time to get some board shorts*

hmmm, this period of time i thought about a lot of stuffs on relationship.. i even attempted to go for someone that i really really love... she told me she loves him... love is a very BIG word... last time she can only use like... since she loves him now, i should just give up la... no use disturb pple... time to give pple the peace she need , anyway nowadays we also dun really bother about each other le... maybe is just her la... i still do... actually... my sis always ask me go for her, she aint married yet... blah blah blah, she dun understand that it is an uphill task....

i was talking to a friend on ICQ last night and it hit upon me that everyone think i wanted a gf and i dun wanna be single... it ain't the case... really.... i am more than use to to singlehood...
i could had started with a gal... but i was too used to this lifestyle that i chose to reject the chance... although that was not the only reason.. but it was one of them...
wat's so bad about being single? i am damn fine with it... it certainly brings me less pain than when being in one... less the hassle more of the freedom...
although i yearn for someone to share with me the joys and sorrows.. someone who understand me 101% and vice versa.. someone who have chemistry with me..
but its just too much hassle now to try to work that out...
i always believe, when the right one come along, i would work it out without even me myself knowing it sometimes.. *lol*
so for now , cheers and kudos to singlehood! and fuck off to all the bad memories and stupid attachments and feelings... like i said before, your love but someone else's unwanted rubbish..

by the way got some prob with my other blog! fixing it! so in the mean time read from here hor

Good Friday to all friends! Christian or non! *smile*
Woke up to a rainy day, wondering if there's bball to be played at TCC today *looks at the damn weather*.

Well, went to watch "Saturday Night Fever" yesterday night at the Esplanade.

It was a really musical! I would give it full marks man! maybe i have low standard! *lol*
The actors and actresses are great! They can really sing well! Dance well! and they really know how to hype up the crowd!
Best of all, it's free! *lol* I always wanted to watch this musical! maybe my luck is coming! cos I got to watch it free!

Ya on the way back! I saw a shooting star! First time in my life sia!!!! but nv make any wish... toot me...

Well during midnight, went makan with Shukun and Esther! Eat Teochew Porridge!

That's all loh.
any other things update later!
and ye, i saw another avia shoe! cheap cheap de $41.90 nia!
time for a new cheapo bball shoe!

Ya and I bought an Optical Mouse too! cost me $24! but its my first virgin optical mouse hor! my own slut cant move le... bitch! off she goes and off the mouse pad too! i dun need her pad!

lalalalalala~~

"Why must this happen to me??"
Isn't that a familiar phrase that we would say when bad things happen to us.
"Why?"
Why did such thing happen? why must it be me? him ? her? but not anyone else?

I found the answer today, out of all places, in a comic book! Its REAL, by the same author who brought to you the epic SLAMDUNK.
It was mentioned inside the comic.

When Earvin "Magic" Johnson was tested to be HIV positive, the character asked, "why must it happen to Magic?"
After much pondering he finally got it.

If there's a god, there's a Buddha, if there really exist such identities, then they must be thinking, that if this is the person that such difficulty befall on, he can certainly overcome and cope with it. Because of his strong character and will, he will be the best person to deal with the difficulty.

So friends, if ever you met any difficulty, think about this story, and hope it can add a little smile to your face. :D
it did to me~~

Happy 25th birthday to Eugene Poh!!!
Testimonial later! *lol*
(Take it as your birthday gift!)

It's been a long while since I last blog....
Well, many things had happened since the last time i blog-ed..
I'll blog whatever I can think of, one by one....

+ Dad passed away...
On the morning of Wednesday, 31st of March, 0045 hrs, my dad passed away at Tan Tock Seng Hospital, aged 57, after a long and hard battle with Lung Cancer.

Dad was a mentor to me. He taught me many a great principles on the way of life as a human. He taught me to be street smart,to be fillial, to be honorable, to be just, to be a man with pride. Many principles that I had were imparted from Dad.

Although Dad didn't live me with many memories, I can still remember some bits of him in my life.

When I was still a kid, Dad will bring the whole family out every Sundays, to Whampoa Market for Fish Porridge and "Yu-sheng". It was always the case.
And I will always pestered Dad to get me "Lego" and "He-man" figurines! *lol* those were the days.

Dad always gave me lots of pocket money during Primary school. I was a litte "rich" kid during primary school days.
Despite Dad's constant strings of financial problems, he never fail to give me the best he could financially or in terms of education.
Dad believed in me in my studies.
He never ever pressurise or stressed me, but he always hope that I would give my best in school. I really appreciated the belief that dad had in me.

He's addiction to gambling broke up the family. The addiction led him into a debt-ridden life... he had to pay the loansharks on time everytime, failure to do so usually leads to beatings and disturbances to the family. Mum chase him out of the house when i was in sec 4.... In the blink of an eye, dad had already left the house for 6 years....

These must be the most regretful and painful 6 years of his life.... i put myself in his shoes... how would it feel to be away from your wife and kids for 6 years... the pain of not being able to take care of them and fulfil the duty of a dad... it really is painful...

these 6 years wouldn't without its harmful effects.... we started to distance....

It was during the battle with the cancer cells that dad and i were closer... I was there most of the time... I was there when he's health degraded... i was there when he needed me.... I was there when he died.... i was right beside him...

i witness dad's fall of health, from a stable condition, whereby he could talk, drink to a condition whereby he spent most of his time lying on the bed, taking in huge breaths, unable to eat or drink, much less to say about talking...

i thought i weren't cry till to the distance that we had... but i was wrong... i was badly shaken.... dad was still the one that i love most....

When dad left... I was sad... but in a way i was glad he left, he was in the most painful stage of cancer and it was a battle that will only result in death, the only thing in question was how long... his death released him from prolong suffering.... i still can remember him struggling to get the breathing aids off himself... i supposed he wanted to end his life there and then... although we didn't allow him to.

Dad died the night mum agrees to visit him. I suppose he was waiting for her... At least when dad died, he managed to see my mum, my sis and I... I think that was what he wanted... his family by his side...

Dad lives in Bright Hill now... it is a serene place... I hope he rest in peace.. I really do... he will always be on my mind and in my heart...

+ Zhirong....
On the 2nd day of dad's wake, zr came to pay her respect to dad....
At that time I got 4 tables of friends, all different groups, thus i had to "butterfly" *lol*
i was going to my army group of friends whom never see my ex b4, they ask me if she's my ex...
i ask them y they said so, they said the way i look at her very different can tell...

I was talking to my sister just now.... she also think i should continue to go after zr since i love her so much, even though she had a bf now, sis still think i shld go after her....

*shld i*???

she's the only girl that i am really at home with.... ya although i am at home with alot of other girls also, but its just a very different feeling, they are all friend friend buddy buddy kinda r/ship... but zr is diff..... just diff......

+ Misc stuffs....
Bought some shits today... 3 polo tees for 30 bucks! lol, got 1 pink de! some cds, some mags.

the avia shoe that i wanted bo liao.... but saw a and1 and a dada one not bad... shld i get? my bball shoe botak le...

+ Some thoughts
We are from 2 diff world..
We have different interests,
different habits,
different defination of the term "fun",
different lifestyle...

We can't click...
the feeling ain't there....

More to update later ba...