good things bad things which one more?

Sat and Sun almost the same la.
Spent both days bball at Bedok CC. Had quite a fine sat. But not Sun... I was way off that day... way way off... worse day in bball history man... sucks....

went to eat on both days with emily, ben and gf, only sun, more members of our clique join us loh at bedok 85.

long time nv go drill my shooting... all quite way off le... haha, no time also la to get that involved with bball. but i still like the feeling as always to do a B-E-A-U-TIFUL mid air rejection or to do a in-the-air move to go past the opposition, i can never get that kind of feeling else where.

but these few days think cant play le..... my back is killing me... turn a bit i also almost die.....

i read finish the cina book le..... it inspired me to write my feelings and thoughts in cina. i had started doing so... as always the chinese language can evoke the emotions and feelings in me easier, maybe becos i am a a sweet potato and not a kang tan. *lol*

wat is love? wat am i? and wat is my problem? i dunno and i wish to know... i dun wanna rush into a r/ship and i dun wanna rush the person i like neither do i wanna pressure her....

i wanna be slow and make things sweet and nice for her.. but i am not behaving that way.... gotta control myself more le.....

also need to have more times with each other to know whether suitable a not and to know each other better..

"leave the most appropriate thing to be said on the most appropriate moment"

but anyway i think its still my prob (i know she dun like it when i say this, but i really do think so...) i had to ctrl myself la... my pace, my actions and my big mouth... also how i feel ba..... most of the time i got no confidence and easily i can tell myself that " hey , u see that, u got no chance one loh!"...... that kind of thing.... when something not too good happen....

ahhhhhh...... i dunno la......

tomorrow go camp see MO..... if not they ask me go play frisbee for the celebration then i sure jialat... think need go TTSH liao if like that....

PS : I know you do read this.... but i dun wish to lie to you and anyone .... i want to be ME myself, to be the straight forward, nothing to hide person that i always am... sorry.....