December 2003 Archives

Well, its the start of the dreaded shift again.....

hmmmmm, am busy writing the love story I had with Rong, I wanna complete what I wanna do for her.
Maybe this is stupid, foolish even, but I just feel that I have to do it.

I had a long sleep, a sleep that I had which I dreamt of her..... that gave me more willpower to sleep, to see her again....

Well, in the dream, she broke up with him, I was at Mcdonald eating when I saw her...

She seem so close... yet so near...

Oh well its all nothing but a dream.....

hmmmmmm, i just read qi's blog, and i knew she would definitely read mine.
need help? just ask, need someone to talk to, just call.
Although I know you got lots of other friends out there and I would be one of the last few you would come to, I would still offer my help. *lol*
Take care okie?

I gonna go work, don't wanna be late. *ciao*

Anything sms me ba..

Well, I slept till 3.30pm today loh.... kinda pig la. But this was done to get myself ready for my week of midnight shift.... yet again... i dreaded it.....

Anyway went to GV Tiong Bahru to watch Lord of The Rings 3 : Return of The King. It was nice loh! Too nice!! Wonderful? Exotic? Watever you wanna call it! It is worth 6 stars upon 5 loh!!! *lol*

that's a part that Frodo said something like this,
"The war is over... but the scars will always be there.... and can never be mended....."

These words kinda reminded me of Rong....
She said before last time..... she still love me (at that time, now i dunno), but the pains are too much and she don't dare to be with me again...
maybe i think too much? *headache*

I always like shows that involve battles. No, I am not a pro-violence freak.. I like the kind of feelings that's involved in a battle. Kinship, loyalty, comradeship, brotherhood, trust and a whole lot more. It really evokes a lot in me, and make me proud for once as a Soldier. *lol*

Well after that nothing much liao la... went to eat... then home loh.

Was talking to Andrew at my void deck loh, for like 3 1/2 hours? well, brothers got a lot to talk to ma. haha.
Talk about friends, problems, troubles, love, prospects and blah blah blah.
Its fate that allows our friendship to blossom and its now up to us to upkeep this "fellowship". hehe.
Hope it never ends...
Well I heard something like that during my primary school days, "Friendship is like a ring, it goes round and round and never ends!" Hope its true for Gu and me because it had been far too many times, that it ain't that way......

Nothing le ba... think that is all.

updated quite a few of my pages, my other sites. :D
hmmmmm, added a new page in love, called love & marriage, copied without permission from min's blog. :X

that's all ba.

feel there is something else i shld write... but can't think of it...... later then add ba.... tata

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分开旅行 - 刘若英 Lau, Rene , Featuring Stanley of Machi.
词：姚谦 曲：David Usher/Jeff Pearce

我选择去洛杉矶 你一个人要飞向巴黎 尊重各自的决定
维持和平的爱情 相爱是一种习题 在自由和亲密中游移
你问过太多次我爱不爱你 BLACK BLACK HEART
SEND 给你我的心 计划是分开旅行啊 为何像结局
我明白躺在你的怀里 却不一定在你心里
巴黎下了一整天雨 不想要去证明 也不知道怎样证明
相爱是两人事情 我不喜欢你怀疑 怀疑爱是可怕的武器
谋杀了爱情 我在这这里本来是晴朗好天气
BLACK BLACK HEART SEND 给你我的心 计划是分开旅行啊
为何像结局 我明白躺在你的怀里 却不一定在你心里
巴黎下了一整天雨 休息一下不需要那么的密集
不必每一秒钟都黏在一起 你问我爱不爱你 这个不是个问题
早就说过需要空间才能继续 我也真的不希望你离去
我们就试试看各走各的路 嘘 别哭 这个只是个短短的不见
别搞的那么复杂 你不是一直说要去巴黎吗

FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract.
Intelligent and
clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy.
Temperamental. Quiet, shy
and humble. Honest
and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves
freedom. Rebellious when
restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive
and easily hurt. Gets angry
really easily but thoes not show it. Dislike
unnecessary things. Loves
making friends but rarely
shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious.
Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.
Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the
inside not outside.
Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries
to learn to show emotions.

ArGhHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

My mouse siao liao..... left button click once become a double-click..... sometimes normal sometimes siao...... sian...... if cant remedy then maybe gonna buy a new mouse le...... (flying $$$$)

hmmmm, I also revamp the layout for my site. Nice bo?

well my last entry was on Christmas day... so wat had happen this few days?

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26th Dec 2003. I was working in the morning. Don't think got go out la. Except on 27th, went to meet Ah Qi to pass her Bruce Almighty CD and a Cina book! My fav cina book!!! Then eat? then send her home then i went home. *lol*

27th Dec 2003
I was working in the morning also. Left work at about 3+ abit la. Reach CCC around 4. Finally a day without rain!!!!!! ye!!!!!! and I played better la compare to the last week at Bedok.

Play finish liao we all go PS to eat. My back was killing me loh.... cant do anything about it anyway...... except to endure and guai guai eat my medicine that the MO prescribe to me. After which we went to eat the Soya Beancurd at Rochor. It was damn smooth loh the beancurd. nice!!! Still remember Malcolm ask me got diff one meh? I told him go get from any other store and eat. Most can taste the "sandy" texture that is found in the others one!
After that I go home loh, slept in the bus..... overslept.... hai wo need to walk back to my house...

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Well was chatting with Ah Qi, she ask me if I still love Rong...

I told her, I can only say that there's this place in my heart that she voided... and no one can ever ever replace her place or fill up that emptiness. I know it is impossible already....

I took out the stuffs she had given me during the 2 years we had... I re-read all the things she wrote....
it brought me back to the times we had... the happiest 2 years of my life..

memories are the most beautiful thing she left me...... but also the sad-est..

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朋友的朋友 - 江美琪 词:姚谦 曲:何庆远

听见你名字 还有心跳的感觉 朋友不知情所以才没发现
经过多少年 伤痕才会看不见 寂寞的尊严也传到你那边
有时候以为 我能微笑去面对 有时心酸到 呼吸都听见
朋友的朋友 我们最后的定位 疏离的让自己 都好想流泪
朋友的朋友 我们最后的关连 隐藏好的伤悲 不想被你感觉
人总会难免 把回忆跟现实敷衍 因为人生对自己残忍了一点
听到你的爱 也停醒我该区别 我想念的爱已无法实现

Bye Christmas 2003.... another christmas that had passed... just like the previous 20 ones....

So what did I do today?

Well I slept for ...... from 8 am to 1 pm.... 5 hours??? then I went to meet Rong, NuQin and their 2 tuition kids.. Well crapped a bit, got some cookies which Rong had made and I was there listening to NuQin toking about her India experience and to Rong about how she spend her xmas with her beau...

Well I may no longer have the flames for her... but after all she was someone that I had so deeply loved before... and to have someone of that statue toking about another guy.... it is damn "suan" loh...

but hack care it la...

I took a bus to Orchard rd..... want to take some photos loh..... damn it!!! heaven rained on me... with cats and dogs.... so in the end i drop my plan... was supposed to meet michelle as she's in the area with her bf to buy watch but she cant la at the last minute cos her mum wants her to be home...

So in the end I am spending it alone again...

Went Kino to get another part of that cina love book.
and bought some papers and envelopes to DIY some cards for my friends..

Then damn sian loh, so was thinking of going home... went take mrt , alight at tpy to change to 159 to go home... cos wanna rest on bus.

hmmm, was half way home when i got a msg from "you-know-who". wanted to alight half way but she decided not to meet instead, cos lazy!!! *lol* i dun mind la, there's always next time.

ok was home, play some games then went movies with andrew, donny, sai, max and rg.

went to watch ju on 2 .
i enjoyed it la, but not the others... lol.... i kinda understand it la, and i appreciate the method in which it was videographed.
i give it ****. hehehe

then go jalan kayu makan and tok kok. now we know who's the fastest in fast attack liao. :X

kooning time!!!! zzzzzzzzz

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was icq-ing with rong.... she ask me did i quarrel with ying over her beau. yes i did and i dun fucking care about whether she and him is good friends a not...

this is me. when i dun like something, or hate something, i can go on and on about it and dun give any face... it is a bad point, i admit... but do i care??

anyway to those of u who think i dislike him because he is rong's bf, then u r wrong! i am not such a sore loser.

i dislike him since secondary days.... and the recent things i heard from both side of the camp degraded him further. maybe he is not wat i think, but too bad... that's life... u dun always get 2 side of the story...

Merry Christmas to all my dear friends and anyone who visits my blog!

Christmas is supposed to be a happy occasion, the day which Jesus Christ was born...

But it ain't a happy occasion for me... at least not this christmas.....

First of all I gotta work on the eve, till 10pm... and for the whole day, other then my re-occuring sprained back, i felt nauseous for the whole day.... never really eat much.... can't even bring myself to finish the food.... i hate that sucky feeling... and to think that when the cold wind blew at me, i am perspiring..... WTH?

For all the xmas eve since my secondary school days, i always had friends or gf to celebrate with me.

Not this xmas....

Usually Ming and Bros will be out with me, if not will be my gf at that time, but this yr i got no friends (of school ties) with me.. what i got was ug,alex,jess and her friends... which I knew they ask me out is last minute one la....

Ming and bros never contact me... but i can understand... wei da got gf now, so he accompany her... fine, same for derong... for chenming he got his own clique... so nvm...

but for esther and nuqin they all?????? wat the hack? they invite joey and bf to eat and go zouk, but not me at all???? maybe i am no longer part of the group... maybe they think 2 of them go better than i go... and if we go altogether, i will turn the situation into an ugly one.... or maybe i was nv really that close to them all.... just my wishful thinking.....

i am disappointed with them..... really....

being alone is nv always bad.... at least u can do wat u wanna do and does not need to be afraid of misunderstandings and blah blah blah...

anyway this xmas was not like an xmas.... at least not how i feel inside.... go out wander around and take night rider home..... my first time though! *lol*

nothing much then other then watever crap i been crapping again.....

shld be spending tmr taking photos.... aiiii..... *ciao*

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Last Christmas by Beatles
Wait
Oh yes, merry Christmas little girl
Hey!
Last year, you left me, little girl...

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice as shy
I keep my distance
But you still catch my eye
Tell me baby
Do you recognize me?
Well
It's been a year
It doesn't surprise me

Last christmas,
I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying "I love you"
I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now
I know you'd fool me again

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart (oh yeah)
But the very next day you gave it away (gave it away)
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

A crowded room
Friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you
And your soul of ice
My god I thought you were
Someone to rely on Me?
I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man under cover but you tore me apart
Ooh, Now I've found a real love
You'll never fool me again

Last Christmas (twice as shy)
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away (you still catch my eye)
This year
To save me from tears (do you recognize me?)
I'll give it to someone special (no, it doesn't surprise me)

Last Christmas (I wrapped it up and sent it)
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away (saying "I love you" I meant it)
This year (what a fool i've been)
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special (I know you'll fool me again)

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart (oh yeah)
But the very next day you gave it away (gave it away)
This year
To save me from tears (from tears)
I'll give it to someone special (special)

Last Christmas (oh yeah)
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away (gave it away)
This year
To save me from tears (from tears)
I'll give it to someone special (special)

hmmmmmm, wat happen today?

Well, went back to camp to report sick in the noon for my back pain.... the MO say it is nothing too serious, just a sprained back, gave me a week of excuses and also a day of mc at home.

well too sian at home... so went to meet gu, max, hx, sai, and rg in town, all going for their xmas shopping.
except me la.... got nothing to buy... or shld i say no $$$ to buy..... of course no money, still must eat la... so we went to the food court at meridien... ate korean kimchi soup.. full full.

later after that we go see Youth Cup loh between tong whye and whye nam, saw qixian and huanwei there, they playing for tong whye. tong whye got some really good players loh. but we only watch the 2nd half nia.

after that went china town to meet eugene for porridge supper. ate finished we send sai home, but stop on the way to eat satay.... lol

that's all la...... boring nite....

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Think it will be the first xmas eve that i will be spending alone.... friends got their own activities..... zhirong got her beau to pei.... good friends got dates.. person i want to date got date also and that is not me btw...

not really used to spend an xmas like this.... but wtf.... i got no choice loh.... haha.
think i will just take it like a routine day la.... but add a bit of vodka to my dull nite... they say u can nv run away from reality... but i believe a little break from it wont hurt....

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tok to her just now.. or shld i say chat.... at least i know my stand now and her point of view....
and i knew other things also.... so right now it becomes an internal struggle...

now i know my shld do and shld not....

i will always be the sam that everyone know... the lame one, corny one, the one who can take care of pple and dun need pple to take care of, the one that admit his wrong and challenge pple who wrong him.... the one who made silly mistakes.... that is the sam everyone know..... i will be that way....

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Remember me this way - Jordan Hill
Every now and then
We find a special friend
who never lets us down...

Who understands it all
reaches out each time we fall
you're the best friend i have found...

I know you can't stay
a part of you will never ever go away
your heart will stay.....

I'll make a wish for you,
and hope it will come true,
if life will just be kind,
to such a gentle mind,
if you lose your way,
think back on yesturday
remember me this way,
remember me this way.

I don't need eyes to see
the love you bring to me,
no matter where I go
and I know that you'll be there
forever-more a part of me and everywhere
I'll always care.....

I'll make a wish for you
and hope it will come true,
if life will just be kind,
to such a gentle mind,
and if you lose your way
think back on yesturday
remember me this way,
remember me this way.

and I'll be right behind your shoulder,watching you
I'll be standing by your side, all you do
and I won't ever leave
as long as you believe,
you just believe....

I'll make a wish for you
and hope it will come true
if life will just be kind
to such a gentle mind
and if you lose your way
think back on yesturday
remember me this way
remember me this way.
o.....
this way.

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Sat and Sun almost the same la.
Spent both days bball at Bedok CC. Had quite a fine sat. But not Sun... I was way off that day... way way off... worse day in bball history man... sucks....

went to eat on both days with emily, ben and gf, only sun, more members of our clique join us loh at bedok 85.

long time nv go drill my shooting... all quite way off le... haha, no time also la to get that involved with bball. but i still like the feeling as always to do a B-E-A-U-TIFUL mid air rejection or to do a in-the-air move to go past the opposition, i can never get that kind of feeling else where.

but these few days think cant play le..... my back is killing me... turn a bit i also almost die.....

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i read finish the cina book le..... it inspired me to write my feelings and thoughts in cina. i had started doing so... as always the chinese language can evoke the emotions and feelings in me easier, maybe becos i am a a sweet potato and not a kang tan. *lol*

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wat is love? wat am i? and wat is my problem? i dunno and i wish to know... i dun wanna rush into a r/ship and i dun wanna rush the person i like neither do i wanna pressure her....

i wanna be slow and make things sweet and nice for her.. but i am not behaving that way.... gotta control myself more le.....

also need to have more times with each other to know whether suitable a not and to know each other better..

"leave the most appropriate thing to be said on the most appropriate moment"

but anyway i think its still my prob (i know she dun like it when i say this, but i really do think so...) i had to ctrl myself la... my pace, my actions and my big mouth... also how i feel ba..... most of the time i got no confidence and easily i can tell myself that " hey , u see that, u got no chance one loh!"...... that kind of thing.... when something not too good happen....

ahhhhhh...... i dunno la......

tomorrow go camp see MO..... if not they ask me go play frisbee for the celebration then i sure jialat... think need go TTSH liao if like that....

PS : I know you do read this.... but i dun wish to lie to you and anyone .... i want to be ME myself, to be the straight forward, nothing to hide person that i always am... sorry.....

"If You Come To Me" by ATOMIC KITTEN
So long ago
I didn't have a care about me
I didn't know my right from wrong
But now I know
That you've got your love around me
You know it makes me feel so strong
Baby if you turn around
And prove to me its real
Maybe we can work it out
Cos this is how I feel

Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
And if you come to me you know I'll make it right

Through out all my life
I never thought I'd have somebody
Someone to call my own
And now I've found
A little bit of heaven baby
A place to call my own

Baby if you turn around
And prove to me its real
Maybe we can work it out
Cos this is how I feel

Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
And if you come to me you know I'll make it right

Hey there dont you know
You gotta slow down before you know
You gonna brake down and turn around
Before you know, you go and break my heart
When will you learn to be
A little helpful when you think of me
A little careful when you're close to me
Coz baby i loved you from the start

Baby if you turn around
And prove to me its real
Maybe we can work it out
Cos this is how I feel

(I love you)

Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby

Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
And if you come to me you know I'll make it right

sorry to make u feel bad just now.... think it shld be my fault instead of urs... i had a bad day and sort of took it out on you.

i know u dun blame me, but dun feel sorry or apologetic ok? cos u only meant it as a joke.. just that i was too harsh with my words.

SORRY! I MEANT IT!
(is this a public apology?)

wat is happening?????? i am in tears now and cant fucking stopped....
i wanna know why i am feeling this way but i cant.....
wtf????

wat...... wat....... wat........ wat........ wat..... wat....... wat......

Thursday. Fine day. Fine on the weather stormy and gloomy on my inner....

I don't know why and dun intend to find out or know why that i am feeling the way i am feeling even till this very second....

I was unlike myself for the whole bloody day... i was quiet... too quiet... i just read my book, do my work and eat my share of rice... I wasnt lame today.. simply because i don't even feel like talking...

I realised i hated reality, i hated this world. I prefer to live in my own illusion, self created paradise where everything happen the way i want them to happen. Where love is beautiful and have no cracks, where money is not a mode of transaction and never exists.

Since young, I believe in righteousness, in upholding justice, in being a man and not letting his woman suffer, or his parents to live in poverty, i believe in placing family before myself where everything mum and dad comes first , in true love.....

but so far wat had i achieve? i broke my own laws, i broke the heart of the woman i loved, parents seperated, mum living in hardship with me... I got only myself to blame for not being wat i wanna be..

I used to think i am someone who dares to accept reality.... little did i realised how wrong i was..

Still remember that day at border with jess, she was browsing thru this horoscope book and that is exactly how pisces was being describe... *lol*

Everybody wants a 2nd chance but how often do they really cherish and grap hold of it? I fall time and time again until the time that i fall the heaviest then i began to learn.

I always hear the phrase, "its nv too late"

is it true? dun think so. there will come a time where no one wanna help, even those who wanna help, can't... you can do it on ur own, but with limited time how much can u do? time is the essence here.

ever since so many shit happened, i dun trust a lot of pple anymore.. i used to be so gullible, thinking anyone who's on good terms with me are my good friends. little did i realise, it is just how good they are with mask.

now i dun really have any friends except my 5 bros, 3 serving ns, 1 as a regular, 1 teacher. some friends from bball that's all. a few good gal friends that i had since secondary sch, from basketball, from lovehurts.

nothing more... i have nothing more...

i had a good chance at life, at love. but i mess it up and virtually murdered myself.
It's either i cannot take failures or the failures are too heavy for me....

Recently I always asked myself is there tomorrow? is there?

I am happy to wake up each day to find myself still alive and breathing.. but how long more will i be able to do that?

I may have already been dead ever since the day I broke up with Rong... I was already dead that day, she gave me the final nail...

now i am roaming on this land not as Sam but as a Living dead...

Rong once told me, that a woman can tell if a man got confident a not, it is something like a sixth sense thing. Man exerts this "I am not confident" aura. I believe this too... cause i am exerting that too and basically I just made all the wrong moves... something that I look back and realised i won't not had done last time.

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Hey Jude - Beatles

Hey, Jude, don't make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better

Hey, Jude, don't be afraid
You were made to go out and get her
The minute you let her under your skin
Then you begin to make it better.

And any time you feel the pain, hey, Jude, refrain
Don't carry the world upon your shoulders
Well don't you know that its a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder

Hey, Jude! Don't let her down
You have found her, now go and get her
Remember, to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better.

So let it out and let it in, hey, Jude, begin
You're waiting for someone to perform with
And don't you know that it's just you, hey, Jude,
You'll do, the movement you need is on your shoulder

Hey, Jude, don't make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better

hmmmm, was quite a pig or maybe not.
slept from 8am till 5pm? its only around 9 hrs, so i guessed i am not really that bad ba.

nv do much today except play cm0304...... that's really not a very efficient way of using my time loh...... wtf?

anyway right now i am really quite mesmerized by that cina book le.
i was reading it the morning, before i slept. really touching and well written experiences. brings me back to those time when i was that in love.

done a bit of magazine cutting to get rid of the mags and also to add on to my scrapbook. part of my inspiration! haha.

nothing too much today la...... sleeping soon though.

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Another qn today for all of you guys and gals to discuss.
question of the day : AFFINITY.

Do you believe in affinity/fate?
Previously I don't. But ever since i broke up with Rong, I started to believe that there's really something call fate ba.

"If its urs, its urs, if not, u snatch also will go away one."

Its fate that I broke up with her, she agrees too. its fate that we met again after that period in sec 3. its fate that we broke up and nv get the chance to patch. and when we wanted to, she's attached and too bad.

if i ever met another one. (have i? some of u will know loh whether i had)
its fate that i met her.
its fate that i saw something in her.
but its effort i must make if i wanna be with her and wants her to be with me.
fate will again decide after all these efforts are made.

wat u all think? in short, its both ur life, fate and effort ba.

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another translation time!

爱情 - 莫文蔚 Mok, Karen
曲：张洪量 | 词：姚谦 (台语歌词：张洪量)

(若不是因为爱着你)
(if it isnt because i am still loving you..)

怎麽会夜深还没睡意
(why would i still be awake for in the middle of the night)

每个念头都关於你
(every thought i had was about you)

我想你 想你 好想你
(i am missing, missing, really missing you)

(若不是因为爱着你)
(if it isnt because i am still loving you..)

怎会有不安的情绪
(why would i have this insecurity in me?)

每个莫名的日子里
(everyday)

我想你 想你 好想你
(i am missing, missing, really missing you)

爱是折磨人的东西
(love is a torturous thing)

却又舍不得这样放弃
(that i can't bear to let go just like that)

不停揣测你的心理
(always asking your heart)

可有我姓名
(if it bears my name)

爱是我唯一的秘密
(love is my only secret)

让人心碎却又着迷
(it breaks people's heart yet entices them)

无论是用什麽言语
(no matter wat language you used)

只会(只会)思念你
(i will only miss you..)

(若不是因为爱着你)
(if it isnt because i am still loving you..)

怎会不经意就叹息
(why would i sigh so easily)

有种不完整的心情
(i feel incomplete)

爱你 爱你
(love you, love you)

(爱着你)
(loving you)

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took this survey from here

Tuesday. Good Day. Evening. Rainy Day.

Didn't really slept the last night...... slept for an hour only then off to work le...
Was quite unhappy la..... PMS again......

Well, was talking to Andrew and jQ loh, anyway i can't sleep ma and feels quite fan...
Andrew got his own set of probs la, but hope i help lighten his load abit. Correct bo brother? We are sworn bros now hor!!! :D *lol*
Tok to jQ loh about some shit... wat she say quite true also la...... i also dunno wat to do now... nothing going as plan.... i am taking it one step at a time now....

by the time i finished talking, it was closed to 5 le.....

Woke up at 7, took cab to work la...... stupid..... waste money again...... i hate to waste money on cab loh! so EX!!!!

work work work all the way till like 3.45???? when my work was supposed to end at 3????? wat to do? got no friend ma...... gotta finish every shit myself.... bitches.....

walk out of camp took me 15 min.... reach bus stop, the rain pour began.... heng siao, if not become luo dang chee le. *phew*

after that go makan at hg pt la, the $2.50 fishball noodle, quantity a lot one!!!
hehe *full*

went home had a nap.... damn song, then wake up at around 10 loh.... miss my 9pm Channel U show....

ya, anyway i finished my BAND OF BROTHERS book liao. 5 STAR stuff man! woohoo!

Next to come is a cina xiao pin. *aims to buy Citizen Soldier next!*

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time for some chim-mi-no-logy liao.

I been pondering for the whole day.

Is there a really a thing called love at first sight? is it possible?

For all my 21 years of life, I never believe in this thing... to me it only happens in fairy tales...
How can you like someone at first sight? without getting to know that person ? blah blah blah...... cant right? unless you are a person who only goes for looks and dun care the rest, then that shldn't be a prob liao.....

was discussing this with jQ, and she made me realised something, that I might have to believe in this now....

I am nv that guy of person that go for looks... although i had to say i want my partner to be someone who i KAN4 LE4 HUI4 SHUANG3 one loh, HUI SHUN YAN one. Like I said before, character is the thing that will last through the years and will be the fundimental foundation of any love interests, and I still believe in that today.

But I believe in another thing now... that's something call fate and affinity... and these are the things you cant explain one loh...... it just *twink" happens!!!

That's why they say love is blind.....

What you guys think ar? share share leh!
I saw a verse in the book i bought yesterday, translated into ang mo, it is something like this

"CONFESSION IS USUALLY A ONE SIDED AFFAIR, AND EVERY CONFESSOR, HOPES IT WILL BECOME A TWO-WAY RELATIONSHIP!"

My ang mo not too good. but really, it sounds much much nicer in CHINESE!

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Daniel Chan - Wen Xia Qu Ai Shang Ni
(saw this from san's blog, got my inspiratiotion from there, anyway i will put the ang mo meaning in bold below the lyrics._

yu jian ni xu yao yun qi
(it takes luck to know you)

ai shang ni que yao duo shao yong qi
(it takes much more courage to love you)

miao xiao de wo zhi zhong yu zi ji
(i only cared about myself in my own small world)

ren shi jian que rong bu xia yi duan chuan qi
(but the small world is not enough to contain a legacy)

you ren shuo gai wang le ni
(some said i should forget you)

wo ning yuan wang ji le wo wu zhi
(but i rather forget about my unknowing)

shi qu liao ni tao hao zheng ge tian di
(then to lose you and make the others happy)

you shen me zhi de liao bu qi
(wat's there to be proud about?)

*wo bu gu yi qie rang shi jie ting zhi
(i forsake everything even if it means to stop the world)

ye yao huan ni yi ge jian chi
(to at least return you an answer) (something like that... dunno how to translate this part.)

ren sheng de jie ju bu xiang ju jiu shi fen li
(in life, either you end up as a pair or you live in singlehood..)

ye zong suan liu xia le xiang ai de hen ji
(but at least, that's traces of once-love)

you ren shuo wo gai fang qi
(some said i should give up)

yao fan hui bi zhi mi hai rong yi
(to back out is easier then to carry on)

zui nan de shi shi qu ai de neng li
(but the hardest thing to do... is to lose the ability to love you)

zai gu du li zui sheng meng si
(left alone to drown in loneliness)

back to * 2x

quan shi jie dou zai deng zhe wo kan zhe ni
(the whole world is waiting for me, looking at you)

rang wo wen xia qu ai shang ni
(let me kiss on and love you!)

gene left my house at about 7.... poor gene, he bo koon..... lecture till 1 pm loh... i felt guilty..... siao liao.....

hmmmm, woke up at 2+, sms san, cos day before say will call her once wake up maybe go for lunch or something.... sms a few msg, reply a few more, waited for her sms and dozed off again.... lol
then 3+ wake up again, faster went online, saw her going out!!! heng i msg her in time, if not i sure feel bad... macam like ps her like that...
makan with jess san at my old hometown called whampoa! change quite a lot, and the stores i wanna eat macam all not open.... san told me its because of monday loh, market no sell pork one....

anyway she ate hokkien mee loh while i ate satay beehoon. after makan we go orchard road to gia gia.
i bought a cina book on love. :D i like it! kind of sweet! *i not sissy hor* but more sentimental nia. haha.
thanks to sansan loh, for bringing me to that section of kino! i nv venture there b4 all my life!!!
we then went on to borders to get another book. wanna get Stephen Ambrose's Citizen soldier, but it cause $32 at borders and $21 at kino, diff is the cover. the $32 one is an earlier print.... in the end nv buy la, cos need to consider whether the extra bucks are worth it.
so we gia gia around borders loh. san was looking at this horoscope book, hehe. and dunno why, i felt quite happy after looking at the book. oh ya, i found some photography treasures at kino too! but too bad.... bo lui...... :(

hmmmm, after that sent sansan back home loh.

on my way back home, went to buy laksa for mum, i personally nv buy anything for dinner... ate maggie mee... cant decide on anything to eat.... haiz....

hmmmm, updated my gallery with the pics from #lovehurts chalet.
like pretty much most of the pics and also was happy that the guys and gals like them alot. that's a compliment and it sure can brighten my day without any difficulty. :D

hao ba, shld be like that la, anything more i shall update in the next entry *winks*

12th Dec '03
.......FIRST DAY OF CHALET....
hmm, first day of love hurts chalet.
met andrew and zuki at 12+ to go makan first.
ate this bak kut teh at teck khee market! SEDAP!!!! NICE!!! lol, it was money well spent!
after that we went to the shops nearby to get some stuffs for the chalet loh, bought a water melon for $7!!! then saw it the next day at ntuc, selling oni $2.10 each...... kena carrot by others..... wtf???

hmmmmm, book into Costa Sand Pasir Ris at around 3.30pm?
realised got to pay extra $40, cos i not union member..... ntuc policy member not entitled one...... wth? nv say....
clean up the chalet a little then laze around till we went to meet the rest at tampines mall.

met up with jessica, gene and alex for makan at yoshinoya, then yaoqing and jessica q, met up with us later for Infernal Affairs 3!

hmmm, let's talk about the show ~~

i only watch part 2 of IA series. but more or less got a grip of the outline of the series.
overall the series was really nice but that's a few things i not too sure/happy of.

1. how did andy lau get his psychological probs?
2. the jumping to and fro of timelines abit confusing sometimes.
3. if u nv watch at least one of the first two parts, u can forget about the show liao....

but overall it deserves 4 stars from me!
:D

then afterwards we took andrew's car to go back to chalet loh. mind you! there was 7 in the car!!!! 5 at the back.
we were stopping at this traffic light.
a police car was right beside us!!! the police woman look at us with that blur look! lol
but heng she nv book us! phew!!! reach chalet, play ASSHOLE and HEART ATTACK, both exciting games, tok cock then slp.. lalala.. usual stuffs!

ps : during asshole, jialat loh, me and jessica always kena demoted together.... if she goes down, i go also...... hai........ lol, but hor during heart attack sorry ar! whack a lot of pple! muahahahahaha :x

13th Dec '03.
.......SECOND DAY OF CHALET........
woke up at 1+???
first thing i woke up was to check who still sleeping, stand up, turn around, ok there's eugene and jess and dunno who. but that who was like sleeping so close to her? wah!!!! so daring????

i kept quiet, go to first floor, saw alex. he just came back from company event.
was asking him about jess and that person......... muahahahahahaah....
turns out that the 2 person was janson and gf.... :X wah piang!!!
cos last night the 2 left chalet ma, but came back later and jess went to another friend's chalet earlier in the morning...... then the pos they slp was the pos jess slept at..... hahahaha.... confuse me..... lol

hao le hao le, after that ate brunch, then went shoot hoops..... sux loh..... cos whole day rain..... wth?
hmmmmm, after bball, go prepare for bbq loh.......
bbq was not that bad i would say, got good food and drinks! thanks GU! hehehehe. me and ug finish majority of the prawns cos the way we marinate was really too too nice le!!!! hmmmmm, i also ate quite a lot of marshmallows!!! i like bbq marshmellows!

marshmellows are a very memorable food item.... it was a novelty that zhirong shared with me.... can nv forget it.....
but now it can only be my own fav bbq item! but hey, maybe my fav item is prawn!!! lol
still thinking about the prawn last night...... *growls*

hmmm, a lot of pple turn up, but they were the usual old birds. new ones got who???? oni 1...... aii.......

took some candid shots, photos, played some games, the bang bang bang and open close, lol, and of course not to forget the name game, test memory one hor! lol
thanks to partner, if not we would have die liao, heng got her to help out! muahahahaha.

that's all ba.....

13th December '03.
....Last day of chalet.....
well, book out at 10.30am....... reach home went to take the developed photos of my sis rom, part 1! :D
some of them were really really nice! i am starting to like flim over digital! or maybe it is just SLR over prosumer cams.
hmmmm, 1+ slept till 6+.
now wake up liao and blog loh....

anyway i still wanna tok about the chalet.. aiii.......
wat i feel about the chalet ~~~
~ starts good ends bad... bbq was a success honestly, planning was good, so was the food...
but participation wise.....
aiiiiiii.... old birdies came except one.... discrepency about her... let's hope her reason are genuine.... newbies?? came 1 but the others who say come come come come till where???? waste pple's time, money and anticipation nia....
then chalet also abit small..... not much pple stay thus most of the fun were lost.. hai...... wat more shld i say wor?

hmmmm, the pics for my sister rom (the flim one) came back liao! i am satisfied loh. now waiting for the digital ones.
while as for the chalet one i am happy too. hehe.

dunno still got wat la.... got more then i add on later ba..

nice knowing u nissan! hehe. u been a joy to know.
hao le. time to return to the game with UG!

1. Are you in love? Sort of..... but no hope one..... she got a bf le..... i had love her and will love her... until a day i dun feel anything anymore

2. Do you compromise? always......

3. Is He/She your best friend? ??? no.....

4. Would you go for your best friend? is that a problem?

5. Would you date your best friend's GF/BF? not likely.... almost impossible..

6. Ever cheated on someone? nv....

7. Ever cheated? if u mean got cheated then yes....

8. Ever been kissed? yes....

(yOoO HoOo!! Where is Qn 9 !?)

10. Liberal? 50%

11. Conservative? 50%

12. Tolerable? Yes to a certain extent

13. Do you give justice? Yes

14. Ever dumped someone? nv

15. Treasure the past? always..... past are the most beatiful memories one can have and treasure. Love is at its most beautiful moment, only in my memories....

16. Savor today? huh?

17. Value friendships? ya, to those worth it. friends i have a few.

18. Do you TRUST so much? used to.... not anymore....

19. Are you "ma-Pride"? - Wad!?

20. Do you live for yourself? used to.... not anymore....

21. Futuristic? not..... i am oldies

22. Value Education and taking it? ya but dun have the chance anymore.. at list not in the near future

23. Ever called anyone a Bitch/Whore? lots

24. Ever called anyone an asshole? come to think of it, no...

25. Are you a Virgin? u guess loh

26. Would you have it with anyone? with someone i love....

27. Are you Crazy? deep down inside.... maybe.....

28. Friendster Addict? wat for?

29. Currently dating? not eligible...

30. Currently flirting? too friendly, pple will call it flirting....

31. Ever go back with your past? always?

32. Go for an ex? i love her and still do.....

33. Happy? nope...... nv been happy for a long long time le..

34. Sad? on and off thing......

35. Lonely? always feel that way

36. Trustworthy? yes and no

37. Love life? i got no life... no need to say about love

38. You Bored? i bored .....

Last 'actual' entry was on 4th Dec, now 12th liao.... been 5 days since I last blog le....
I shall try my best to recap....

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5th Dec
Was recalled back to work in the pm..... *shrugs* 12 days in a row that I been wearing my number 4.... macam like no rest like that...... as usual, working day = no life day... the equation still remains....

6th Dec
Woke up early in the morning. 6/12/03 will be a very special day for my sister, that's the day she register her marriage!

went ROM early in the morning for my sis's ROM, was their appointed photographer. *lol*

anyway can see that she really happy and is marrying into a good family whom i am sure will treat her well!

Was really happy for her! finally at the old 'ripe' age of 26, she finally gotten married liao! :X lol

In the noon went TCC pak bball instead of CCC as the CCC court not open for use la.

Had a good day i remember, although shots were quite off but I made a few good rejections ! thanks for the memories to Ah Yong and Moofie! *lol*

After that as usual loh, went to the coffeeshop down the street to makan. but before that gonna go draw some cashie! the atm at shunfu market was down so i had to hitch a ride from Yong.
Wow, although I am used to riding and getting pillion about, I gotta say, being a pillion on a scram is really not safe...... made me think thrice about buying scram liao...... but still got that chance la! *lol*

anyway we went to the coffeeshop and ate a lot loh! me, yong, don, emily and simin ordered some dishes and share! *bao bao!*

then after that go home liao loh.... (shld be la i think....)

7th and 8th Dec
Work......

9th Dec
Still work.... but at night pak mj with Min, Ben and Yibin... lost.... *lol*
damn sway nowadays.....

Andrew and Donny came over as well to play ps2, supposed to watch soccer... lol.
they slept over till the next morning!

10th Dec
Woke up in the noon, suppose to meet uG earlier one, at 1+... but too shack, heng msg him before i sleep, that i will be postponing the meeting.

met him at 3+ eventually.

uG, rG, Gu and me went to SLS to buy uG's P4 loh. *diao uG with envy eyes @@*

saw a lot of goodies at SLS, now aiming to get a 15" LCD and a DVD Burner to burn ps2 games! :X

Gu got a new keyboard, some blank cdr while rg got a 6 in 1 usb 2.0 card reader and some blank cdr.

I only got 2 pcs of cdrw..... poor poor

after which uG treated us to Scissors Cut Rice!!! Song song sia eat till! just ask andrew loh! *haha*

then went over to uG house to install the pc hardware. spot on on the first attempt! haha
"wo shi shen tong!" *lol*

then go over to gu's place later in the night to watch Arsenal vs Loko!

11th Dec
Woke up at 2+ in the noon...
went makan with gu then he drop me off at amk to take bus home as he needed to go for his karaoke audition loh *all the best bro!*

then after that reach home, played cm4 for quite a while..... downloaded Bittorent, now downloading shits! lol

burned the ps2 iso ah gu downloaded for me! thanx man! winning eleven 7 is song stuff!!!

then watch the Infernal Affair 2 CD i borrowed from andrew! nice show! 5 thumbs man!

that's all le ba i think.....

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I got a bad news...... a really bad one...... dad contracted cancer.... forgot its liver or lung.... heard from him over the fone that the doc told him it cant be save liao..... too late and spread too much....

didnt get a chance to tok to him these few days, must really meet him up and tok to him.... i gotta understand his condition!

i was walking home today from hougang point.... saw this funeral going on below my blk.... and i thought wat if 1 day i gotta do that for dad..... dun wish it to happen, dun even dare to think about it any further.....

dad, i hope u will be alright..... really.....

i had a dream of buying a house 1 day and asking u to come back to live with mum and me....... but that dream might only be a dream after all..... starting to see the hopes vapourising........

if there's really a god up there, i hope he show me he can help.... and not disappoint me like he always did....

You're an INFJ
INFJ
You're future-oriented, and direct your insight
and inspiration towards understanding yourself
and thereby, human nature...your work mirrors
your integrity....reflects your inner
ideals...solitude and a chance to concentrate
thoroughly on what counts most is important to
you...you like to quietly exert your
influence...you have deeply felt compassion and
desire harmony with others...you'll go to great
lengths to avoid conflict...

You understand the complexities existing within
people...you don't call a lot of attention to
yourself...you like to let your accomplishments
do your talking....you look for a small group of
people who understand and appreciate you and hang
with them....you're gentle and don't like
violence...

You'd rather have a few close friends instead of
be at a big party ...you'll do well in college as
your "day in the sun" where your brains count
more than they did in that ol' shallow high
school...you want your work to contribute to the
general good...

You have a strong love of learning...you get
along well with teachers and older people...you
write well 'cause you can formulate your ideas
clearly... you have integrity and
consistency....you don't like the "politics" at
work.. you'd rather be able to talk honestly with
people than "play games." (you still play games
on the Storm Palace, but would rather
post! :) )...intuitive insights into
situations...

You're quiet yet persistent and determined in
your efforts toward long-term goals....when you
work toward your vision, you win cooperation
rather than demand it...even if you don't lead
others, you still facilitate things... leisure
time usually is solitary or involves the company
of others particularly important to you...you're
perfectly happy just sitting around with close
buds discussing feelings...you'd rather have
longstanding friends than make many new
acquaintences...these deep friendships are
important to you, even though you may not share
much about yourself...

You become attracted to someone special and
prefer this one deep one over many superficial
ones...this depth, though, is only partially
communicated outwards...you like a
regular "date", revisiting the place where you
first met your mates, or doing other symbolic
things that help to continue or confirm the
existence of the bond.

You may have an ideal standard of the way love
is...you're often disappointed when reality
doesn't quite match up....you want to give love
and be loved... you enter into relationships just
to be cared for...even when the other person
isn't right for you and you know it....when you
meet the right person, though, you are quick to
get involved with them and make it a serious
one... you'll end other relationships to be with
this "right" one....

When you're scorned, you take it personally and
retreat inward...you may obsess about the
relationship and your role in the failure...you
blame yourself for a failed relationship and
might even need a period of mourning.

You should watch out for becoming blinded by the
idealism of your visions or if you focus only on
your ideas...this could make you ignore reality
when it contradicts those lofty ideals...you
could stay with a belief or commitment beyond
what the facts would support (stubborn?)...you're
loyal...

Also, you could lose out if you don't act
assertively and are reluctant to intrude on
others with your ideas...as a result, you could
keep many important things to yourself...you'll
then feel that your ideas are underestimated or
unappreciated...maybe you should develop
political saavy or assertiveness to sell your
ideals...finally, you should be forthright with
criticism of others...you're always doing the "If
you can't say some- thing nice...." stuff. After
you hold it inside, you'll blow up eventually.

INFJ: "Inner Nuances Fosters Journeys"

Take the test here!

Hmmm, let's see ar, 30/11 - 3/12 been working loh, so as usual la, got work means no play.... *pathetic*

Well, anyway went pak bball with Ben, Xian and Monkey yesternight at Bedok CC la.
Was my virgin trip there.
Ok la, had a good playing trip! Without the usual tall brudders around, *laughing liao* i really feel like an invincible rebounder!
but then again, last night dun have any good ka loh.... maybe except the tagawa fellow, but i dunno his name la, monkey's friend.
As usual loh, monkey was on fire!!!! so sharp sia!! *lol*

But was never disappointed at all regarding the trip to bedok, why????? cos got good food!!! song song!!! *muahahhhaha*
hmmmmm, ate chui kuei, duck mee, wanton mee! so song!

Anyway tmr cant go TCC..... last minute gotta go back to work..... its been a continuous 12 days that I been in my number 4.... WTH?????
But work is work la, so i gotta be professional about it! *muahahahaha*

Anyway Sat is sister's ROM, hope I take good photos of it, if not she sure kill me one!

By the way, congrats to Monkey for passing all her modules *i wanna see better result loh.....*

hmmmmmm, ya, for all those who been waiting, here's how my newphew look after the hair cut..... no more HA RI liao..... the jap hairdo is gone le.....

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saw this in UG's blog, thanx bro!

something about sam...
Posted at 12:13 am

who is sam?
i am certainly not sam.
but i wish i could be like sam.

sam is a friend i gotto know at ccc.
he was donny's friend. i guess he was alex's friend too.
i didn't even know he existed in irc until the day i met him.
he's slogging his life for something call the army.
in a what they call a G-14 unit.
gotto to know from him my primary school mate's in the same unit as him. this world is so small.
he was from yio chu kang sec and i was from presbyterian high.
the two school are really close together.
but we never met until now.
not now but a few months back.
he's an easy going guy. a good friend i can say.
like what brothers will say...
a brother in need, is a brother indeed.
likewise like all other common human beings
living in this capitalistic society of singapore,
he do have his own worries and burdens.

but there's something about sam.
he makes people laugh,
with this corny and crappy comments.
we all now relate our crappiness with "you just did a sam"
citing that we are corny or crappy.
well, like sam, i think it's good to be corny and crappy at times.
it does make people happy, smile, break out into laughter.

that is sam.

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now to return the favor

Something about Eugene!
The first time i went down to CCC was thru Andrew's and Donny's invitation. It had been half a yr since I befriended these bunch of good good friends!

I never notice Eugene at all, the first time i was at CCC and at MS after that for steam boat.... and I do not even had one hack of an idea, how we finally broke the ice and talk and become good friends, ha *ponders*

but I would just say wat i feel about him and not go investigate the unknown reasons.

The 1st impression Eugene gave me was that he's very upright! Innocent kind of guy, those hao hao xian sheng type. Well mannered, helpful and friendly kind loh. But....... lol! no la, he's still in my mind that kind of guy la, only thing about him is I can't imagine him being sot sometimes to join in the fun and be fun loving kind of person. But now no need to imagine le, cos i saw him in action liao!

There's another thing about Eugene that I gotta say and maybe that's the additional reason why we can hit it off. Eugene loves photography, just like i do! It really aint easy to find someone that's interested in the craft. My ex dun like it when i bring along my camera cos she says i neglect her..... and that's how much i am into photography.

Eugene likes to take panorama! *lol*
bro maybe we can go photography trips something, share share la hor! :D

Eugene's also a listener la, when u r down , he will listen and give good advice! He's helpful loh, when u r not in the mood, and he know about it, he will come knocking on your door and offering his "services" *muahahahaa*

Still remember that time me, him ,donny and alex went to eat the imitation chong pang nasi lemak! almost vomit man!
thanks to eugene for toking cock with me about army shits! *lol*

and ye, did i say that singapore is small ? like wat eugene said, he study in presbyterian high and i in yio chu kang, so near, but we never know each other....

but we are linked! by a primary school friend of his who is now my colleague.
singapore is really small......

that's all i can think of about EUGENE!

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cuts like a knife lyrics by rockwell

You touched my life
with a softness in the night
my wish was your command
until you ran
out of love
I tell my self I'm free
got the change of living just for me
no need to carry on
now that you're gone
CHORUS

Knife
cuts like a knife
how will I ever heal
I'm so deeply wounded
knife
cuts like a knife
you cut away the heart of my life

When I pretend when I smile
to fool my dearest friends
I wonder if they know
it's just a show
I'm on a stage day or night
through my charades
but how can I disguise
what's in my eyes
(Repeat CHORUS)
Oh oh oh oh oh ...
I try and try locking up
the pain I feel inside
the pain of wanting you
wanting you
(Repeat CHORUS)

1.Have you ever been in love?
Yes.... i ever been.....

2.How do you know it's love?
hmmmmm, my ex ask me before, i would just say it is a special feeling! and u will think of that person every moment and she will become the priority of your life, she's your number 1!

3.What makes you fall in love?
LOVE loh.... duhz

4.What if your girlfriend/boyfriend is a bad kisser?
not a prob with me, i love her bcos of her character not bcos of her kiss.

5.What turns you on (at 1st sight)?
attitude and eyes

6.Are you the jealous type?
ya....

7.Body or brains?
character!

8.Does looks matter?
to a certain extent, yes.
no need to be chio or wat, just need to be SHUN4 YAN3

9.What turns you off?
nothing...

10.The perfect date?
no such thing.... but if u love someone, every date without any arguement would be a perfect date!

11.What do you have that will make a person fall for u?
thousand and one things

12.Do you still believe in courtship?
.......

13.Flowers or chocolates?
flowers

14.Kiss on the first date?
situational....

15.What would you do if you find out that your girlfriend/ boyfriend is cheating on you?
depends on the severity of the cheat, if not emotional ones, its ok, i dun even mind sexual ones, as long as there's no attachment, i am ok! just don't do it again and learn from the mistake.

16.Have you ever cheated on someone?
never

17. Where's question 17??? o_O??
*looking around for qn 17*

18.Fling or long term relationship?
LTR

19.What do you think of holding hands in public?
ok wat

20.What do you think of kissing in public?
ok wat

21.What if your girlfriend/boyfriend is a smoker?
ok wat

22.Ever fell in love with a friend of the same sex?
i dun like lesbians, so wat do you think of gays?
hmmmmm

23. What would a girl/guy have to do to win your heart?
love me....