Bad thoughts had been crossing my mind these past few days.....
Is it only when I am under immense pressure, then these things comes back to haunt me? I wanna get past this stage but I failed tremendously.... I really hope for a break through... being stagnant aint gonna help me... at all.....
I saw her in friendster... saw her comments on her beau...... saddens me even more.... isn't that suppose to be me? *lol*
I don't deserve her anyway...... and neither do I deserve anyone at all.....
I was brought back to that down period of my life which I even attempted suicide... chances are I will never do something as stupid again....
She had left me... No longer loves me and that is the truth and the reality, I will move on! I promise myself this.
Besides love, I think about my families and friends.... I let everyone down.... I was the one they hold so much expectation to.... and so far besides giving them the academic results.... What did I gave?? I didn't deliver my promise....
Some say I am still young, but to me that is not a good excuse.... I really wanna do good and prove to EVERYONE that I can make it. Yes I can!!!
Enough of all this crap, time to go CCC, bye blog, see you tonight!
*I feel numb to love..... anyone can help? *lol*"
Someone said... "Wallets are a lot like guys/girls in a relationship. You really have to take good care of them, because if you won't, something might happen"...
One day, you just realize it's gone. You try to look for it everywhere, even going back to the places where you could have lost it. You think, and you think hard, only to come upon a grim realization: it's really gone.
Of course, you can hold on to some hope. After all, there have been some very, very lucky (blessed?) people who get it back. Perhaps you could become one of those people. You sit home and you hope that someone would call, and that you would get it back. But then, some time passes, and you realize that it's still gone, and you realize that it's time to let go.
The first few days, you turn to your friends for support. Some tell you you'll be ok, some tell you that it was your fault and that you should have been more careful, and some tell you about their own experiences. They give you all sorts of advice, none you haven't heard before.
You then go out to find a new wallet, only to realize that you don't really want a new one. You want the old one that you lost. No, you don't want all these better-looking wallets, you want yours, because of how comfortable it is, because of all the cards and pictures and other stuff in it.
You go out and carry on without a wallet, keeping your money in your pocket instead. You throw away stuff that you would have held on to if you had your old wallet. And then, finally, you find a new wallet you like and settle in.
You then start filling your new wallet, little by little. It still doesn't feel as comfortable as the
old one, but it's getting there. Then you start putting in cards and pictures and other important stuff in the wallet.
Soon enough, there's as much stuff in your new wallet as the old one. And then, after some time, you feel as comfortable with your new wallet. And then you realize that you've almost forgotten you ever had your old wallet.
Sure, you still remember most of the stuff you lost on that wallet. But then again, you don't remember the feeling of hurt that you felt when you lost it. That's because that wallet you lost is no longer your wallet.
You're no longer holding on. This new wallet you're holding, it has all the important cards and pictures and stuff that you need. This is your wallet. And this time, you tell yourself, you're never losing this one.
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