Angry with myself????

Wat's wrong with me????????

Today woke up late for my cross country competition....... supposed to gather at 2 pm ...... I reached at around 3.40 pm..... naturally I got scolding......
After cross country, went to bus stop to take bus to TCC.... met a superior there... went forward to talk loh.... who knows.... once see me, f*** me left right centre...... CCB I already dont like him liao, still piss my already shit-start day off.......

Whether i call back to unfamiliar number is my choice wat..... he cant sms ar??? stingy piece of shit! always use me to let people think he's better..... need to use me meh???? knn......

Next went TCC, played like shit today..... somemore sprain my thumb again.... why must it always be that thumb??????

Was on the way back after makan at the usual kopitiam, tot of a lot of things ba...
was thinking why that time forgetting her so difficult, then right now it is so easy???? can't be friends now , maybe next time, not now..... she contacted me a few days back when i told her not to anymore..... think i gonna ignore her for quite some times ba......

Thought about a thing called LOVE!
think either i am sick and tired of it or that i gave up on it altogether le....

My last r/ship was the veto factor ba.
Went through a lot with her.... too much..... 2 years and all gone le.....
thought the r/ship meant something to her..... but it really nv i think......
since love between 2 can be so weak..... trust can be so weak...... how can i trust it again????
my 1st gf left me for another rich guy..... my 2nd gave up on me..... after that i gave up on myself.....

right now i just wanna be a fillial son!
make myself useful to the society.
i wanna do charity!!!!! *lol*

and in the mean time i will think for myself wat is the meaning of LOVE......