I am sad.... real sad.... damn sad.... over her.... it's been 5 months and 16 days since we had broken up..
During this period of singlehood, I tried to be friends with her but right now I don't think we can work out as friend....
I wanna move on in life and not linger around in the past.
Every contact which I made with her only cause me to think more about her and want to be back with her more.... but it aint possible anymore, at least not now... she has a boyfriend and I never want to be a third party in ANY r/ship...
Friday
Whole day spent in Sentosa..... at night went TCC to play bball then makan at the usual place after which I go home and sleep liao.
Had a fun time smsing Jasmine *lol*
Saturday
As usual went back to camp, had a 3km run which I clocked in 11 minutes, nothing to be proud of, but I can slowly see myself running back to GOLD standard.
Noon went to meet Alvin and Andy loh, had a couple games of pool before we went to eat and then go down CCC.
I wasn't happy on sat at CCC..... maybe is due to the poor start I had to the bball game, no one in my team was serious and I hate to play in that kind of team.... coupled with my own sadness... it only made matters worse.
I was all the more "fan(2)" after Andy knock my head and I injured my tongue.... it was stupid.... then later some stupid idiot started to have "war". Hate to play with guys who play so rough.... he was all over me (even when the ball is not with me)..... I was pushed and injured my left wrist again! FUCK!!!!!!!
Later after bball went makan at Meridian. Was both tired and sad thus even rejected Ah Gu's invitation to play pool..... Meirong sms me and ask me to go to Holiday home again with the rest of the lads. I dun wanna go.... I dun wanna see people I don't wanna see.... I don't wanna be sad... I don't wanna.......
I slept once I reach home and that's it but Fuck! I am still sad now.....
Why am I sad? I really don't know......
Am I anti-social? I think I am..... especially after I was debt-riddened a year back and came to see the true side of many people.....
Am I a hermit? I am..... need I say more
I saw a gal today and she's the type I like , but guess she already have a boyfriend so off the idea goes.....
bye blog..... update you again later.... later......
Current Song - "This Is The Night" - Clay Aiken
When the world wasn't upside down, I could take all the time I had
But I'm not going to wait when a moment can vanish so fast
'Cuz every kiss is a kiss you can never get back
Lift me up in your eyes
If you told me that is what Heaven is, well, you'd be right
I've been waiting forever for this
This is the night
When the answer to all my dreams is as close as a touch away
Why am I here holding back what I'm trying to say?
Lift me up in your eyes
If you told me that is what Heaven is, well, you'd be right
Hold me close to your heart
I would go with you to the ends of the Earth and we'll fly
I've been waiting forever for this
This is the night
This is the night where we capture forever and our tomorrows begin
After tonight, we will never be lonely again
Lift me up in your eyes
If you told me that is what Heaven is, well, you'd be right
Hold me close to your heart
I would go with you to the ends of the Earth and we'll fly
I've been waiting forever for this
This is the night
Current Mood - 
Chill man... Frankly speaking, I guess there is nothing much we can do anout our failed relationships.. Its good to know that u have a positive attitude.. Which is not to linger in the past and try to move on.. U can make it.. :)
ya you are right man..... i am now given a choice, to fight and make her mine... or to give up and move on.... for the time being i think i will choose the former.... but possibly will be changing also if all dun turn out well...